Written over a week ago, just now posting

Thursday 8/27/09
Lesson: Just imagine things that aren’t there

Last Thursday was the first home football game.  Mark and I are both excited for the season to finally begin, but I don’t think his excitment can possibly compare to mine.  This is what Mark lives for.  I envy that in him and urin for the same kind of passion in myself and in my career.  I’m just so glad he’s doing what he loves because I’ve learned that is what life is all about.  I would work for peanuts for a dream job if I could. 
 
I went straight to the college when I got off work for the game.  I even brought a Fairmont State shirt and jeans to change into to.  Most of my tailgate buddies are long gone and since I worked for the radio broadcast last season, I couldn’t tailgate anyways.  But this season my radio job that would have hopefully led to a dream job is now over and I’m left to just wear my FSU gear, drink my dinner and sit in the stands like everyone else.  No more sitting in the booth during games which was especially nice when it rained or snowed or when it got to be 30 degrees.  Guess I’ll just have to miss those games. 
 
I didn’t really have a great time at the game, considering we lost, but it was okay.  I new before, but at the game I definitely realized that the few friends I had here are gone, and it’s hard to make new ones.  Especially now that I have a job and am never around people my age anymore.  But besides that, I honestly haven’t met very many girls here I like.  I’ve been living in West Virginia for nearly 5 years and have met very few girls I enjoyed hanging out with for longer than just a few months.  Girls here are different from where I come from–very superficial, very needy, very sneaky, very dishonest.  They’re the kind of friend that won’t tell you your top is unflatering and you need to change.  The kid of friend that tells you what you want to hear, and I can’t stand that.  I am a very honest person, maybe sometims too honest and that was something I majorly needed to tone down when I first moved here.  Some people are too senestive, but I myself like pure honesty in a relationship.  I wouldn’t want it any other way. 
 
Anyway, I tailgate with one of the players mothers and I definitely feel awkward since there is mostly family there.  I don’t know many of them and have very little to talk about with the ones I do know.  She is very welcoming and always offers me all the food and beer I want.  If I don’t tailgate with her, next time we see each other she’ll say, "Where were you last game?!"  She’s sweet, but I wish I had a fun group to tailgate with instead of feeling in an outcast in a bunch of family.  For the rest of the season Mark’s mom will come to all the home games so then I’ll be able to sit with her, but she won’t tailgate and I probably won’t drink beer then either.  I’d rather sit with her than drink beer anyways so it will be fun to have her around.  I really do like her a lot. 
 
Work is going well, actually it’s been better.  I got into a bit of a confrontation with a girl in the office and she hasn’t talked to me since.  I won’t bore you witht he entire story, but in a nutshell she put her nose where it didn’t belong (in my work business) and I told her to mind her own responsibilities and not mine. My days are much more plesant now that I don’t have her complaning and talking so negativitaly in my ear anymore.  I thought she was a cool girl at first and I actually thought we could be friends, but obviously not.
 

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September 8, 2009

I completely understand that about doing what you love. I see that in Dave and absolutely love it. ItÂ’s so hard to make girlfriends like the ones from home. I totally agree with you. I havenÂ’t met any here either, itÂ’s so depressing, I miss my girlfriends so much. I love how honest and open we are and how I can tell them anything and no matter what it is I never feel like they will judge me.

September 8, 2009

Wish you were closer so we could hang out! My school almost sent me to WV last year!

September 11, 2009

I hope you find a dream job soon! I know it means so much to you, as it should! And I wish I lived close to UT (where I went to school). I’ve never tailgated before but I did always enjoy going to the football games!! Take Care!