No More Pity Parties!

Lesson: Be Easy.
 
My dear boyfriend Mark, ohhhh Mark. How sweet he can be, but also equally as rude. That boy, I sware….
 
It’s no surprise to anyone, especially Mark bc he hears it constantly, that I hate my job. I sit here wasting away day after day, so you can imagine how pleased I would be by the slightest distraction or friendly visit that would happen to come my way.
 
Well, I work in Morgantown, 25 miles from home, so Mark and I can never see each other during the day or eat lunch together like we used to. Last Friday Mark was in Morgantown for a football camp that started in the afternoon, but he came early to play golf with his friend and got rained out. I thought, GREAT let’s have lunch together! I was excited by the thought of how nice it would be for him to bring some Panera or Wendy’s or ANYTHING and we could sit outside on a Friday afternoon. Doesn’t that sound nice to do in the middle of a terrible work day at a job you despise where the days just get longer and longer??
 
I waited for him to come through all afternoon. Finally at 2 p.m. he said he wasn’t going to have enough time. There’s more to the story as to why he couldn’t make it, but the only part I’m concerned with is the fact that…. he didn’t come. I was disappointed and at my ham and cheese totally bummed out.
 
I got over it though, no biggie, and now Mark is gone for the week and I miss him. He left Saturday morning. It’s a bit lonely not having anyone to come home to or go to bed or wake up with. I’m just so used to him being around all the time for the past 3 years, well almost 3 years. Since we started dating we’ve spent just about every night together, except of course when one of us is out of town, like now.
 
It sucks eating dinner alone. I ate a whole box of macaroni and cheese last night HA! I used to do that all the time when I first got my own place. Obviously I didn’t care to cook back then. It’s so unhealthy but I couldn’t resist. That’s something I would never do if Mark were here, mostly because we share food. I felt so guilty for eating that much macaroni and cheese I did a million sit ups and squats while watching Jon & Kate Plus 8. It felt good. Speaking of, I was so sad for Jon and Kate. I love that show and have been watching it since before the babies could talk. I really thought they were perfect together and that they were going to work out their problems and get through it, guess not. So sad. There’s no hope for any of us! Ha ok just kidding.
 
Somehow I hurt my knee, and it hurts pretty bad. I’ve been doing SO good with my running ever since I signed up for a Boot Camp workout class. I did it three days a week after work for six weeks and we ran A LOT. Last summer I ran about 30 minutes 3-4 days a week, but I upped it a notch this summer. In boot camp we would do 4.5 miles and that took about 45 minutes. I got addicted. But after the class ended I decided not to sign up again since it cost $185 (!!) and running is something I can totally do on my own, and have been. The coolest part of the class was we did physical assessments before and after the 6 week class. I stayed the same weight, 108 lbs., but I lost 3 inches all over, like 1/4 inch here, 1/2 inch there, you know. Pretty much my who body lost something-arms, waist, chest, hips… everything except for thighs! WTF, the only part I actually wanted to loose an inch or so didn’t at all! lol. I lost a whole percentage of body fat so even though I still weighed the same, it means I got more lean. And that’s good thing!
 
So since the class ended Mark and I have been running together, sometimes I go by myself when he’s not home and we were doing good. I’d like to run longer, more like 45 min while Mark only likes to do 30, we manage. We had this huge hill on our route that Mark really struggled with the first few runs, since I ran hills all the time in boot camp I was used to it, but I knew it was still hard.
 
Then starting last week my knee started to hurt towards the end of my run and I thought it was strange bc I’ve never hurt my knees before, but I ignored it and kept running. Soon it was hurting more and more and continued throughout the day and night. One day I got home from work and saw it was swollen and was pretty pissed. So I stopped running for 3 days. On Saturday I went for a GREAT 4.5-5 mile run and ran that huge hill TWICE, like a machine, even ran up and down a bunch of stairs, and I was screwed. After that my damn knee hurt all night sat, sun and yesterday. Today it feels much better but I promised myself I wouldn’t run until next week. And I should probably ice it too…? Maybe at least I’ll go for a walk, nice and easy. I’m going to the beach for 10 days (so can’t freaking wait!) in about 4 weeks so this is horrible timing. I’m going to use my bender ball a lot more now!
 
I’m going to get a cheap hair cut after work today and I’m looking forward to it. Just about 2 inches and some layers. My usual. I thought about cutting it short again, but eh. I dunno. Hairis hair to me these days. It doesn’t matter as much. I liked it short but I like it long too. Who cares. It doesn’t make much of a difference to Mark either. I wish it did because it would help me decide better. It was realllly long, past my boobs, when we started dating. Then I cut it short, above my shoulders last summer. It was cute, but I’ll stick with long for now. I think all guys like long hair. When I get married I want my hair to be supppper long, so I guess I’ll start growing it out now just so I’ll be ready whenever that day comes lol. I’m silly. My hair is also naturally curly, but I usually straighten it. Mark, I think, likes the curls better but he never chooses, I can just tell. Probably bc I hardly ever do it and its like a surprise-new-girlfriend when I do. Guess we’ll just wait and see what I come out with today!