Crummy week

A lot of it comes from lack of sleep! Phil had a destination bachelor party last weekend, so I didn’t get to sleep in (Sat and Sun are the only days I get more than 5-6 hours) and to add insult Riley was up at 4:30 on Sunday, I got about 3 hours of sleep. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday it was blazing hot – 90+ and HUMID. We have no A/C, so cue non-sleeping child. I don’t blame the kid, she was waking every few hours sweaty and her mouth was so dry her tongue was clicking. One night it was so hot even I tossed and turned until almost 3, it was awful. Luckily it broke Thursday.

Then Wed and Thurs Riley napped 4 1/2 hours, OMG. It helped on the getting more unpacked front, but I was going stir crazy! It was finally nice out and I had all these plans to go to the park and jogging and none of it happened, not even play group. She just wasn’t awake long enough.

And today I FINALLY had everything in line for the Boston Supernatural convention (funds, child care, a place to stay) and purchased the ticket I’d been watching. Oh wait, I mean I THOUGHT I purchased the ticket. Apparently the seller had already sold it to a friend and Ebay didn’t immediately pull the auction when she canceled it. I was devastated. There’s no way I can do Gold without the discount (she was selling it for $150 less than face value) so that’s a bummer. I also found out the normally "free and open to anyone" karaoke is limited to con attendees only, so I don’t even know if I’m going to karaoke – which is one of the best parts of the con! – because I don’t really care much about the guests on Friday and don’t want to spend the $20 admission just for karaoke.

We haven’t made it to moms group much at all since moving, I think we’ve gone once, and I’m in a lonely place again. It sucks. And even online lately I feel like an outcast, which is sad. One of the boards I’m on people are really close and I found out a girl I talk to quite a bit was visiting from the midwest and met up with another NH girl, but didn’t even tell me she was in the area. Then some moms in a FB group I’m part of were talking about texting each other….apparently most of them have exchanged numbers. Most of them have met as well or expressed interest in meeting each other, except me. That one stung because there are only 5 of us in the group and I thought we were all close.

I did go out Monday and have a blast with some moms from group. They have open get togethers, so I went for mudslides even though I knew no one. Then we actually made it to group the next day and two of them were there, so that was fun. And Thursday Emily came to visit, YAY! For those unaware, Emily is my BFF who was away at grad school the past 3 years. She’s now graduated and job hunting and (somewhat) in the area. That was fun. Tuesday my mom and sister are coming to visit and we were going to try and see Harry Potter, but I think I might ask Phil to wait and go see it in Maine over the weekend so I can actually hang out with them. I was invited to go out Saturday night by a coworker (and kind of friend), but the young mom from way back who decided she didn’t like me and stopped inviting me to playgroups is going and I don’t want the drama. She just turned 21 I found out, and it makes sense the way she acts sometimes (not to say all 21 year olds are full of drama, but she is!) I was also invited to go out Thursday by some other coworkers and I really like the guy whose birthday it is, so I think I’ll go out with them that night instead and to Maine for the movie over the weekend. Though it’s such an annoying drive, but then Em could go with us,

I started charting this cycle and it lasted a week. Starting last Sunday I woke at different times every morning, either with Riley or to pee, and Fertility Friend basically hates all my data points from this week. It’s an ugly chart, there’s no way anyone is going to see ovulation there lol. Next cycle, OPKs.

Oh I remember what else I was mad about today, I had a really good week food and exercise-wise and didn’t lose a single oz. I was crushed when I got on the scale this morning. Obviously I’ll just keep plugging away, but it’s discouraging. Riley and I have been doing a lot of jogging. I’m up to 3.4 miles continuous with the stroller and 4 without. I’m also about a full MPH faster without the stroller according to Run Keeper lol. The run I do most often is almost all uphill, so it makes a difference pushing a 25 lb kid. My heart rate monitor died the end of last week and I thought it was the battery, but apparently the casing wasn’t screwed on tight (from when I tried to change the battery not realizing I had to send it in for that) and there was water damage from condensation. So now I have to get a new one, boo.

I’m on my last pair of contacts, that are probably a month old at this point, and can’t get an eye appointment until September, ughhhhh. I hate wearing my glasses and I’m sure I’ll have to switch to them before September gets here. Having a baby makes you forget a lot of things….like scheduling eye appointments.

My child is as adorable as ever (when she sleeps) so at least I’ve got that going for me. She hides herself, now, and will jump out and say "There!" because we always used to do "Where’s Riley?" and when she appeared we’d say "There she is!" lol. The other day she turned and waved and blew me a kiss before leaving the room and I think my heart melted. About two seconds later she came running back around the corner waving and saying "Hi hi hi hi". We were reading a words book today and she repeated "apple" and "sock" after I read them and when we were getting ready to go outside she picked up her sandal and said "shoe" while she tried to put it on her foot. Oh she also said banana the other day. Apparently her obsession with books and reading is paying off. That and my constant monloguing during the day 😛 She also will follow simple commands like "Get the block" or "Go find Daddy". I was in shock the first time I told her to do something and she did lol. It’s so easy to assume they don’t understand since the talking part comes so much slower.

Now I should sleep because I’m exhausted and tired of obsessing over what to do about Boston Con. There’s actually a front row Gold ticket for sale for a LOT….but there’s also an "Or Best Offer" option. I’m thinking about offering $100 less than what she’s asking (would be roughly $40 less than face value). She’s charging to cover the international credit card fee she paid for being out of the US – I think that’s a bit much considering Gold tickets are not sold out on the company website. Hence why the other ticket for sale was discounted. I have my Vancouver autograph ticket for sale at almost half price because their still up on the company site – there needs to be incentive!

Oh well, goodnight!