The Line

 The Truth is nice guys don’t finish last. We just never finish. There is too much emphasis now-a-days on physical attractiveness and financial endowment that the personality side of things seems to be completely lost. I understand this seems to be true for both sides of the sex coin. I know I see what is physically attractive to me which is vastly different from what society sees as physically attractive. But more important than that I seek someone whose personality meshes with mine. That is possibly the single most important thing however it seems like you never get a chance to find that if you’re not Tom Brady good looking or Donald Trump wealthy… Perhaps it is because I missed out on a lot of that dating culture that seems to happen between 17 and 23…

Or maybe I am missing the whole point. I don’t know. Perhaps I am missing that whole "friend" thing… not to say I seek relationships with the opposite sex simply for the romantic end… I have platonic relationships with females… I just want that other part to exist in my life. I seek love in all that romantic sappy movie quality that I figure has to exist out there some where… for me… for everyone. 

I have been thinking about this a lot since Evan has kind of been on me to "get back on the horse" as it were. I just suck at all the parts of creating relationships (whether male or female) I suck at social interactions with strangers. So much so that if I go somewhere that I know no one with a friend and end up alone I will tend to either leave or just collapse into myself. I suck at interacting… Mostly because I don’t want to be rude or interrupt anyone else. I hate trying to get into a conversation and feel like I am intruding. Here it is one of the many reason i suck at approaching people… i see people at work but what am I going to do? Interrupt them while they are working diligently? Bother them during a break or when they are trying to leave? Then you go out… bother people while they are enjoying their food/drink/shopping? Its the part of life where I wish the "meet cute" was scripted into all of our lives just to make things easier…

Even then. I like to think I fairly well adjusted, however, I have the worst social anxiety… It is truly terrible. God Awful.

Maybe someday I will figure out this whole "social interaction" thing… maybe not.

Nice guys, the truly nice guys, never finish because we don’t know how to be the kind of assertive we need to be to finish. 

~Sky~