the saga ends

so i had been feeling kinda crusty lately. after a fabulous trip down to austin (kirby lane for yummy pancakes, mothers for yummy vegitarian/vegan brunch, cheddars for dinner, 6th street for bar hopping, chuys for texmex and hot waiters, bowling, san marcos for shopping) i get back and just feel totally blah.

anyway. i wound up going out with some neighbor’s this past weekend. was kinda fun. went to hooters for dinner on friday night, and then wandered over to coyote ugly which just opened in town a few weeks ago. it was a rather interesting experience. was fun. got up on the bar, but none of the people i went with could/would go up with me, so that kidna sucked. but, i think when i go visit my friends up in boston i’m gonna go and drag some crazy nutty peeps there with me and drag them up on the bar with me 🙂

anyway. the saga ends. i wrote TS boy another email. though i probably shouldn’t have. I do believe that this whole drama could have been avoided if we had just sat down and TALKED. I think we would have come to the mutual conclusion that it just wasn’t working for either one of us, rather than him saying, i don’t htink i want this and thinking i was totally crushed etc etc. anyway. here’s basically what i wrote:

 Figured I’d email and say hello. Also I wanted to let you know that I’m not mad at you. To explain with regard to the whole “i hope we can still be friends” thing and why i wasn’t (and continue to be not) entirely sure that can actually happen. I expect my friends to be honest with me, and I also expect at least some level of communication from them. A response to a telephone call or email for example, is always appreciated. Having someone let you know what’s on their mind (whether it be “good” or “bad”) is always better than trying to guess at what it is. I also can’t say that I believe that you were sincere when you said that you wanted to be friends, as most everything (the whole non-communication thing) both leading up to and after the “lets not see each other anymore” thing don’t really reflect that. can i be friendly/civil? sure, i’m not gonna be a total frosty bitch to you if i should happen to find us crossing pathes or in a group setting. but friends (in the manner that I personally define a friend)? i’m not really sure i see that happening, at least not right now…but i’m willing to try if you are too.

anyway, that’s all I  wanted you to know. do with it what you will. hope everything’s going okay.

yeah. anyway. that’s pretty much my friendship philosophy. is that unreasonable? anyway…i hope things are going well….

spring training has begun! whoop! 🙂 so no tickets at fenway. arg. oh well…