Where do I go from here?

Did you ever feel like you’re gonna disappoint everyone?

I’m studying English and Geography in college i’m in 3rd year (my final year) but after this year I have to go on to do a postgraduate diploma so I can be a primary school teacher. I need good grades this year to get into the other diploma course but its so hard! I’m just not interested in my course! Geography isn’t too bad but English is so boring and I don’t understand half the study they’re talking about, I don’t know how to critically analyse anything!! All my English modules this year will are all essay based rather than exams, problem is I’m better at exams than essays!

My family are expecting me to become a primary school teahcer because I’ve been saying its what I’ve wanted for years. They’re not pressuring me, I know they’ll be happy with whatever I do but i don’t know if thats what I want to do anymore. But, the thing is I can’t think of one other thing that I do wanna do! Carl said I should go for the teaching and see how it goes and that i’ll regret it if I don’t try. He’s right but what if I can’t? what if I fail this year or what if I don’t get onto the postgraduate diploma course? everyone will be so disappointed. My head hurts…

-Aoife