Where have I been?!?!?

Getting my life in order!

I’ve gotten my temporary license… and I know the woman who’s going to do my driver’s exam. Already talking to the dealer to get my car, much to Dad’s dissapointment it’s British, not GM. But as I contend, at least it’s not a Honda.

Since I have no Significant Other, my Dad is going to co-sign for my car… provided I use my tax money and take driver’s ed.

So I was wondering why the thought crossed my mind to have someone take a picture of me on the hood of my car, flipping off the camera with my license and send it to the jerkface ex?

Pfft. He doesn’t deserve the time of day from me. Deserves nothing for how he broke up with me. Deserves neither my time, compassion, nor love.

Anyway, I wouldn’t send it. I’m a walking mat.

I’ve realized, after the attempted suicide, that I’m just the bottom of the barrel. Men don’t want me, and I don’t want them anymore. I just want companionship. I don’t want to deal with the lies and the cheating and the non-communication.

No babies for me. No one to cuddle in the night and sing to sleep and love unconditionally… My grandmother had a Down’s Syndrome baby who had Cystic Fibrosis, and I’m already 28… that’s not much time.

Ah well, I’ve got my temps… getting my car… so now I’ve just gotta get my dog and a rocking chair.