new town, new place

wow it hase been a long time since i have been on here… so i figured i would try it out again. craziness… a bit weird but still very familiar… i dont think any of my friends are on here… its crazy to think that i have been a part of the OD community since i graduated highschool and that was 6 years ago… that’s a long time to be committed to the same thing.

but anyway… so i am in grad school now… crazy i know… i just joined the rugby team… man i never met a group of girls who play hard and drink harder… i am like damn where do all those calories go… its kinda crazy to me… i’m not a drinker personally but i love to chill and hang out… but that’s about it… another thing is they are somewhat younger than me… and white… not like the white part has thatmuch to do with it but it does being on the east coast… not only that but they are still in under grad… most of them are not even 21… and i am way past that stage… it was a fun time dont get it twisted…

but i am having a good time… i finally feel stable… like i am okay being by myself… i am meeting people, i have a girlfriend who is not here… but who i speak to all day almost everyday… sometimes we get tired of each other sometimes we can talk forever…

but more importantly i finally feel okay with myself and doing what i need to do to get by… its wonderful… i havent had this for a long time… i spent so much time worrying about so much, but i am really at the point where i am okay… maybe turning 25 was a good thing for me because i really do feel differently about a lot of things and i am taking a lot of things more seriously… more importantly i am taking care of myself… its crazy… i am happy… i can literally sit here and type i am happy and mean it. i dont know…

i had a game today with the Philly womens rugby team. I was the only one from my team rthat got to play and i did great  (for the 12 minutes I played) It was awesome. i love rugby… i get out a lot of agression and i dont find myself as mad as i used to… not even that but i am just so relieved when i slam a girl to the ground. its great.

but yea i am in a great mood… hopefully i can keep this up… next time maybe i will tell you about my roommate… lol