good books

so i am really into the book i am readin… its called alma mater by some lady… but what is so interesting about it is its like deja vu… this happened when i was reading sweet fire… that book was about 3 chix, one had just broken up with the other and then one had moved on already and the other weas very jealous… it was like an almost carbon copy of the way things were with me courtney and roxanne… that was weird cuz it had just happened…. then the book i am reading now is like me felisha and clarence… the more i read the more i am like wow… its abouta girl who has a great boyfriend they aresuppose to get hitched but then she meets this girl who shse didnt expect to fall in love with but just so happens to… dont get me wrong there are many similarites but many differences as well… but its just like wow… like the part i just read was when vic and chris (the two girls) were talking to each other and chris was telling vic how she knew vic was sleeping with both her anc charly… then it made me think… like gosh i am an idiot… that whole semester she was sleeping with him and with me… i just started to feel gross… like she would kiss him and me and sometimes probably on the same day… and iknow sometimes it wasnt protected and my mouth was in the same place… i just wanted to take a shower… but i already had…

i just really began to think abouthow our relationship even started off… she cheated on him for three months… like that’s serious…  i stayed cuz i had that never say die attitude… like i refused to lose her to him… but now that i think about the situation completely and everything that was going on … i just cant believe myself… its like the exact same situation… maybe its different becausei n the ned i actualy got the girl but still… everything i went through just to get her… i just feel it wasnt necessary…  not only that but i guess i really do understand why she didnt tell him… i mean they had just broken up so yea he would be upset… but to be honest he would be upset anyway… i think she was mor worried abuot losing the closness they had… more worried about about how it would affect the relationship she had with him… what if he knew she cheated on him for three months… then how would he feel… would he still be as suppostive and therefore her, knowing she did all this behind his back… its like lying only not i guess because its over… but it just makes me think because he thinks sheis this perfect lady… or close to anyway, but there is so much he doesnt know… whatever that does matter…

enough about him… this book is really good… i cant wait until i get to the end… i wanted to finish yesterday but i had a whole bunch of stuff going on… i’m only 10 chapters away… i just cant believe how oblivious i was… like duh he is still her bf of course shes sleeping with him and you… i dont know why part of me is surprised… i guess i’m just slow… i need to stop thi is just makingme more upset about it…