So sad! … and stuf

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Philip just left to go spend the night down there with his boss again   His boss ran out of the game systems he’s selling so he called philip and told him if he’d bring him some more systems he’d give him $100. We definitely need that money right now, so, off he went. I’m sad. I *HATE* not sleeping in the bed with him. Maybe it wont be as bad as last time… hopefully anyways. *pouts*

I had a lot of people ask where the "abortion?" entry went. I put it on private. Not because i’m not up for debate but because it really upset one of my fav’s earlier. My intentions weren’t to upset anyone… the point of the entry was to vent. I did mean everything I said in that entry but she got upset for a reason other than abortion, and it was a very sensitive subject. I just thought it would be nice of me to put the entry on private.
But anyways… most of everyone agreed with what I said. It made me feel really good… for the last few days i’ve felt like i’ve been alone. That would never stop me though… I believe what I believe and I wouldn’t ever think twice about changing it to get others to approve of me.

We had dinner with our friends chris & jennifer tonight. It was okay. I didnt really have fun at all, it was boring. Autumn was upset a lot of the time because she doesnt know them and she was in a place that wasn’t her own. She was good for the most part though. Me and jennifer are going to hang out sometime next week. I think i’ll ask her to go with me to pick out autumns halloween costume. I like hanging out with her when its just me and her… I dont really like hanging out with her when philip and chris are around. Its just awkward… I dont know why, but it is.

I miss philip   It doesnt even make any sense why he would go down there tonight. It is already 9…. it will take him 2.5 hours to get there… then it will be (at least) 11:30. His boss isnt going to sale anymore tonight, and if he does, it wont be enough to really count for anything. *sigh* O’well. Hes going to pay for our apartment tomorrow while hes down there tomorrow! Oh, I forgot to tell you…
We got an apartment!!! *lol*

It is SO nice. So nice. Like, amazing nice. Very expensive nice. Im so excited, I cant wait to move!!! We have been talking about it today and I think we are going to go ahead and move in the first week of November instead of Thanksgiving (the 23rd). It only makes sense because we will have paid for it AND philip can go ahead and start working and make a little extra money. Man, we are going to have our own place. *squeels and jumps for joy* … You dont even know how excited I am.

We find out tomorrow if we are going to Pensacola. When philip told me about it before, I thought it was a definite thing … but it wasnt. We are waiting to see if there is a spot open where he would be selling the game systems. It is a very big "yes, we are probably going" … so yay. We find out tomorrow, before 3:30. Philip has to go to work at 2 but when he gets the call saying we can or cant go, if we are going then hes quitting his job. There would be no point in him working there anymore because he only works on the weekends (does real estate during the week) and we would be leaving on Thursday. Ive been praying we get to go… it will be nice to get away for a while. A mini vacation. Plus, it will be Autumns first time to the ocean! Very cool.

It is 9:45 and I think I need to go to bed. Im not tired, but I need some extra sleep tonight. Mama is tired *lol*

Oh, tomorrow I am taking my friend "Q" to get on medicaid. I talked to her a few minutes ago and she said that her and her bf broke up and he still wants her to get the abortion. I said "well, he’ll have to get over it" and she agreed. Thankyou, Lord. Shes being so strong and brave. Im glad im able to help her. Please keep her in your prayers.

Gnight

-b-