The state of things. *Sign from Steve Jobs edit*

I haven’t written here in a bit. When I did I don’t think it was anything really important or deep. My absence is due in large part to the stress I am dealing with in every aspect of my life.

Saturday at 11:59pm my company officially goes out of business. I’ve spent ten years keeping it afloat and now I have to let it sink. Im getting a new job out of all of it, but I still feel guilty about manipulating everything the way I did. So I get a new job and the other owner of the company will be driving a school bus and trying to pay her bills. Though I have to say that for ten years I worked my ass off and she did absolutely nothing (seriously, nothing), so I can’t feel too bad. That doesn’t mean it won’t be hard to take off my badge Saturday night.

On the personal side of life, things are going all to hell. I had a meeting this morning with the special education teachers at the kids school tonight. They said that he is the smartest kid in the class but he has a stutter that is causing communication problems. So for the next year (at east) he has to be in speech therapy twice a week. He did all of this and still made High Honor Roll and is the top reader in his class. They said a lot of it was “emotional distress”. The teacher said it happens a lot to kids that are involved in divorce. That was exactly what the lady said about Maddison and the behavior issues she is having. Fantastic.

I am trying my best to figure out how to make things better for everyone and it seems it is just causing more problems.

Lang is putting up with a lot right now to be with me, I don’t know how much longer she can handle it. Honestly she deserves much better.

*The other day I think I lost my iPod at church. I had it in the pocket of my sweatshirt and when I went to go pull it out it was just the headphones. I think it fell out and I didn’t notice when I was running around with the kids. I’ve called the church a few time and they have not seen it. I am really upset about that. Then today I was opening my cell phone to check a ext message and the thing broke in half. I think maybe after picking the kids up from school I will go to the Apple Store (I call it the iStore) and get an iPhone. I think I can use a pick me up and an overpriced piece of techogagetry may be just the ticket.