I made it. *pictures added*

So I made it through 10/03. There are a few days each year that cause me to go into a deep sadness, and yesterday was one of them. I always get a little depressed when my kids go to their mom’s house on the weekend and I know that I won’t see them at all until Monday. Yesterday was even tougher. Every Friday I load them into their mom’s car and stand on my porch as they back out and drive away, all three of them wave until they are out of sight. I sometimes wonder if they keep waving when they get around the corner, I know sometimes I do. very often I sit on the porch not wanting to go into the empty house behind me. Yesterday was tougher than normal tough, it would have been my little brother Kodiack’s 24 birthday. Wow, it’s crazy to write that, he would be a man right now. He would have a job, maybe a kid or two, he would have a life all his own. Instead I am forced to cling to memories of a dying child in a hospital bed. Kody died of Huntington’s Korea when he was 18.

I miss you buddy.

My sister Kim, myself and Kody in Yellowstone. One of my favorite all time pictures just because the way my brother is looking at me. I loved making him laugh.

Kody and our sister Katie about a year before Katie died and two years before Kody. They were best friends. At Katie’s funeral my brother Ken said that Kody and Katie were like the Borg, one mind, a collective. That was the truest statment he has ever uttered.

Kody just a few months before he passed away. How can anyone in so much pain manage such a big smile. That kid knew nothing but love.

Another of my favorite pictures of Kody. Peace out brother.

Thanks for letting me share.