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This oil spill stuff just gets me, man. I hate our impact on this planet. It’s not fair to all the other creatures who are unable to help themselves.

So today is the first day of our new Wednesday hours at work. I’m pretty unhappy about them, to be honest. We’re now open 11-7:30. Leaving work a 7:30 is not going to be much fun. On top of that, there is one bus from the city to Bellevue after 7:30 pm and it’s at 8:16 pm. So assuming I got out on time, I would sit at the bus stop for 45 minutes. Fantastic. The bus TO the city in the morning is also not a good deal–I’d have to get there a half hour early every day. I may decide to deal with it just to continue saving the money I’d been spending on gas, but as for today I’m driving.
Additionally, we don’t have our "own" doctor for that day, and none of the rotating doctors want to work that late so we aren’t able to get anyone to cover. As if that weren’t enough crap to deal with, our nurse has to leave at 5:30–a full 2 hours before close which means the other person who does my job will be moving to cover his job, and I will be marooned at the front alone. All uber lame.  Hopefully they will see that this does not work and will change it soon.  Cross fingers.

I feel oddly self aware lately. I know that’s an odd thing to say, but I feel like I’m not myself lately. I’m not aware of the things I’m saying and doing until they’re said and done. I mean, I guess that means by definition that I’m being myself but it feels… off. This all makes me nostalgic for high school and college when I had a ton of friends and stuff going on and felt better about myself. I mean, yeah, in high school I was depressed but it wasn’t as self-loathing as my depression now is. I’m going to find a counselor soon here, I made that promise to myself.

I wanted to write but now am finding it difficult… I guess I’ll go.