Managed?

I’m starting to think my depression may not be as well-managed by this medication as I thought it was. I’ve been having the feelings of worthlessness and hopelessness pretty often lately. I don’t know whether to blame the drug or my poor taking of the drug because there have been days I’ve missed the pill for 12 hours or more and then went "Oh crap!" and hurry took it. I don’t know that SSRIs work like that, though. It seems since it takes a month to feel their effect and that you have to wean off of them when you stop them that they’re longer lasting than to completely vacate your system if you miss one pill.
I get health insurance in about a week here so I am definitely going to follow up with the proper medical people at that point. Well, after some independent study. It seems like I should give the meds the benefit of the doubt because they have worked so far and just get into a more regular routine of taking them and then see if there’s any improvement.
Upon reading the first paragraph again, I’m beginning to wonder if I’m expecting too much from these medicines. It’s not like I can be ok and 100% happy every single day, day in and day out. It’s normal to feel down, if unpleasant. Is this normal, then? The worthlessness?
This really makes the case for getting serious about my meditation goals.
-E