Girls just want to have fun :)

We have a very nice sunny day! Surprising 🙂

I have another health issue, gosh! I’m allergic to the antibiotics I’m taking, I’ve been having strange rash on my arm and leg for some time now so I’ve stopped taking them. Called the doctor but the receptionist said to call him later. Not sure whether I’m allergic to penicillin or it’s something else. Last time I was taking antibiotics was ages ago.

Apart from that I’m good…I’ve realised that I need to control my emotions. Do often my emotions take control over my reasoning, I get emotional or upset over some event I haven’t been previously….not sure how to handle that. I have tendencies to over think some events and usually I find some negative side of that event which makes me even more nervous. I don’t know why I do that? Maybe I’m trying to have everything under control?  I don’t want to feel that way and I’m so aware of the absurd of it but I can’t help it and those negative emotions stay with me even if I try to ignore them.

I think I’m over sensitive, when my sister will react to such situation in a reasonable and cool way I feel like I have to fight…it’s like I think I need to fight to be heard, if I don’t fight no one will take notice. Maybe it comes from the childhood…but I’m seriously annoyed with myself, I wish I could just take things easy, maybe I can…at the end of the day it’s me who decide what to choose no matter how I feel I can always choose being positive.

Despite this I’m actually in a good mood….I guess I’m used to those emotions….

haha…emotional I’m somewhere in between them both…I guess I’m the baby 😉

Anyway I have my ways to fight my negative side, nights-in help even more than nights-out. During long, cold winter evenings there is nothing better than some time in when I can do what I want. What I do….

lit a nice candle

pamper myself a bit….

I’ve realised that I eat more than I need when I’m stressed, so when I’m relaxed I can eat small amount of food and feel satisfied …so I have some small piece of cake or some other food, or just a glass of wine or hot chocolate, it depends of the day

 

Think positive…I do collage in my journal or I watch a funny movie or read some nice, positive book

I like movies or series from 90’s like these

love Bill Cosby Show!

great for winter nights. I bought first series in HMV

My goal for this year is to ignore those negative thoughts that I often have and start to take life more easily, stop fighting for my rights and start to listen to others, maybe I’m going to learn more from them.

and just enjoy what is given to me today rather than question it 🙂 and just have fun