Octo 5 & He left :(

5th – Favorite fall outfit/outerwear -OR- Oktoberfest (German folks, but often celebrated in the US as well)

I’m having something like this one, and another one with colorful dots. I don’t usually carry an umbrella with me as I hate carrying them around, so the parka is a good solution to London’s weather! :)))I think it’s my favourite fall wear! and it can’t be black!

I’m a bit sad as I’ve just received a message from my friend that Edward finally left to India. He went there for a mission, not sure for how long. 

 There was a thing going on with Ed for the whole summer, and there was a moment when I thought that maybe something will happen. I think I screwed it up a bit by acting indifferent, but he also didn’t make much of the move except occasional staring, coming around and strange talks to my brother. I guess the whole thing was in my head only, although I know there was something going on even my brother said so, but it was too small and weak to get any real shapes.

I knew he was leaving but the news that he has actually left struck me as something new! I have stopped thinking about him anyway, but somehow I had a dream about him last night. He was clean shaved (he started to grow a beard gosh!!! weeks before his departure) in my dream he was shaved and I was wondering why, and he was talking to me but can’t remember what.

Anyway….I know that everything happens for a reason and I know that what is happening is the best for me, still I’m just a little bit sad…just a little…..