just an entry

I didn’t have my laptop with me for the past few days so I couldn’t log in here. I’m at my cousin’s and it’s OK, of course I don’t have as much privacy as I had before but this is my choice and I’m totally fine with it. In fact I like it.

The only problem is I don’t have time to log in to OD, and if I have it’s always a short time so I need to choose between writing or reading others, so today I’ve chosen writing, but I will read my fav dairies as soon as I have more time to do so.

On Thursday night one friend (the one who is friends with those guys including the older one called Michael) called me and said that on Friday so and so are meeting in the pub and they asked me if I could come. I have no idea why I said yes! Maybe because I work late on Fridays and always feel a bit down when I come back home and see all those people staying inside the pubs, chatting and me being always too tired to meet anybody.

So I agreed and it made me strangely nervous that day. I was wondering why… I was also wondering if that was a good idea to meet with them, maybe that would give that guy some hopes etc.

Anyway, when I finished work I called my friend as I promised, I was sure she was somewhere in the centre. Well she answered the phone almost in tears telling me that she called them and cancelled the meeting because the eldery man she’s been looking after had some accident and they took him to the hospital half an hour ago….she told me the guys were upset but she explained them. In that case there was no point for me to go to the pub as I hardly know them, so I went home. I was soooo glad we cancelled. I think next time I won’t agree, I need to learn not to give chances in places I know there is no chance. 

P.S. there is someone else I like…but this is not possible….so I’m not giving myself hopes or anything, I have other things to worry about….