2/17/08

So, my birthday was yesterday.  Had the whole family over to congratulate me on another successful trip around the sun.  Got me thinking about my life, specifically my current job.

I don’t know if I’ve conveyed my feelings about my current job here, so in case I haven’t, I hate it.  Well, maybe not hate it, but it’s just not good for me.

Anyway, I am completely bored.  Thats not to say it isn’t challenging, it is.  I just have no interest in doing this job at all.  The company is a good company.  I am treated well.  I am payed a decent salary.  It has excellent benefits.  Most importantly, I love the people I work with.  But I am completely bored, and this frustrates me.

I looked at my life yesterday from a macroscopic point of view.  I am in my late twenties.  I had my fun partying in my late teens and early twenties.  I’ve taken a sufficient break from socializing to recover from betrayals and hardships I felt I have incurred at the last social period in my life.  I think it is time to begin socializing again.  Most importantly I believe it is time for me to find someone to settle down with, to marry and have children.  I can’t see myself doing this successfully with my current job, even if I were to transfer intercompany to another job title.  This company, and what it can offer, just doesn’t fit me.

I feel like a puzzle piece in the wrong box.  I have no interest in any of the products we make.  I am still young and relatively healthy, I should not even begin to start thinking about medical devices.  Granted we have a division that creates other consumer products but they are either out of state or at facilities that I’ve heard horror stories about.  Anyway, I just don’t feel that there is a place there for me.

So I am looking for another job.  I have to update my resume, but that shouldn’t be too hard.  All that has changes is my experience at my current workplace.  The question is, what sort of industry do I want to work in?  I have a strong interest in automobiles, especially those utilizing the latest "green" technologies like biodiesel, electric motors, solar cells, etc.  But that industry is hard to get into, especially now that american motor companies are suffering big hits from Japanese auto makers.  I have also thought about going into interactive entertainment (video games) but that industry is pretty hard to break into as well.  I figure that because I have no experience in that industry, other than the games that I play, that I would pretty much have to start from the very bottom, like QA playtesting or something like that.

I don’t know.  I know I’m smart, I’ve got a college degree to prove it.  I know I’m resourceful and a hard worker, you can ask my current supervisor about that.  I have a good work ethic, I am sticking to a job that bores me to death (to the point that I come home incredibly frustated and sometimes even angry) and performing my tasks at an above acceptable level.

But now, I’m starting to make mistakes and bad decisions because I can’t bring myself to care about what I do any more.  I think that this Friday I am going to confront my boss and ask him to start looking for my replacement.  I have a unique position and I think it will take more than a couple weeks to train my replacement so I think i should tell my supervisor now so he can find and I can train my replacement while I interview for new jobs.  Well, maybe I should wait until I send out a few resumes.