8/27/06

I haven’t been able to get out and walk, or do much exercise. I feel like it is catching up w me. Feeling kind of blah.

Yesterday I got a lot done. Felt like I never stopped… felt pretty good about it.

sonshine texted me asking if I had watched the latest episode of an anime we downloaded and watched together. I said yes. I downloaded both that anime and another one that he watches that I am not really hooked on, but I watch now that he is gone. Hanging on to the memories, sort of. Makes me feel like he is still part of my everyday life to watch stuff we used to watch together. I miss him, but I really am doing ok w it. Glad he is gone, but miss him too.

Crud. the weekend is almost over. Gotta go back to work tomorrow. There are things I like about work, but there are definitely things I wish I didn’t have to face. When I stayed home with the kids, I preferred the weekdays, especially when the kids got into school. I dreaded the hectic weekends running here and there. When I started working, then I looked forward to the weekend. Now that I have a job I am less than thrilled with, I live for the weekends.

I will have to clean house more before the kids come home next weekend. Laundry is caught up. I had been gone more than a week, then home 3 days and turn around and leave again for 4 days. got back in time to go to work and try to catch up with work issues. Didn’t really have time to do laundry until yesterday. It is almost done. Maybe two more loads. Hub has been folding it for me.

Our routine is that he sits in front of the TV in the basement (just about all the time he is home) and I do my own thing. The laundry room is in the basement, so I will bring out a clean load and say, if you have time, could you match these socks, or fold these clothes? And he does. he leaves them in little piles on the floor, so I have to go and get them and put them away before they get all stepped on and dirty again.

When we first got married, he was so industrious. most of his time at home was spent working on things. Fixing up the house. Building things. Making things. I don’t know when that stopped, but stop it did. Getting something fixed is an act of congress around here, and in the recent past, tears were common over these issues. I just blow it off now, and mention every once in a while how much I really would like such and such done. And I leave it there. nagging almost always has a negative reaction and I am far less likely to ever have it get done. Begging, same. It doesn’t matter. Usually, if I want something done, I often do it myself. If it is something I will mess up, I ask. But it usually does’nt get done.

I am glad hub is folding clothes for me. It helps. Then I have time to get on od and write. lol.

I have also been playing sudoku puzzles. I am getting pretty good at them. I am doing the evil level, and I can usually get them, eventually. It takes my mind off other things. I really miss my kids. I really am glad they are gone though. Weird. Part of me wants to go back in time. But the other part is saying, time to move on. I just hope sonshine has a good semester. He misses home, I am sure. But that will soon become home, and then he will want to go back there. That is what happened with dau anyway.

I can’t wait til they come visit next weekend. Then it will be a very long time before sonshine can come home. Probably Christmas break. Not enough time to come home on a weekend, and the only break he has there is something going on down there so we are going there instead.

faith hope and love, but the greatest of these is love.