work in progress

This summer, the Lord spoke to my heart about forgiveness. It was painfully obvious how I held onto unforgiveness and how important it was to let go of it. I thank the Lord I have been able to give that to Him. I have not had a struggle with it since.

Very recently, the Lord pointed out to me just how very selfish I am. Now begins the trek of giving that up. These things have been in the works for a long, long time, but I am looking to the Lord to make a change in my heart.

I am thinking a lot of the anxiety I experience has some connection to these. I don’t feel good about myself a lot of the time. I am unsure, insecure and I hate that. But I want to fix these things so I can be a better servant, not so I can feel good about myself. I am thinking that feeling better about myself will be a byproduct. It is just that I have always been a selfish person. And it is embarrassing. Really.

So that is what I am going to be praying about as far as my growth in my walk with the Lord.

I know my ministry operates at times in a remarkable way. But when I can’t sense that, I get all self conscious and don’t know how to behave. I get all tied up in my mind and I am not free. I need to remember to quote myself Galatians 5:1. “Stand fast in the Liberty, wherewith Christ has made you free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.”

Without looking it up, I think that is right.

I want to spend more time in scripture and more time on my knees in prayer. I feel that the Lord has given me an avenue that I am not making the best use of. I waste my time with things that don’t last.

The Lord is SOOOO very good.

Jesus touch my heart, heal and make me whole again.

Jesus touch my heart, help me see my goal again.

My impurities, bring me to my knees, Jesus always sees my needs.

oh Jesus touch my heart.

faith hope and love, but the greatest of these is love.