through a veil of childish cries

(when we try to pretend someone doesnt exist to ignore the pain it just bites twice as hard as i’ve come to realize. and fathers are idiots.)

its the way of the world, unfortunately. i don’t like the fact that its a struggle to be human sometimes.

oh, goodness, dear…i know the feeling so well. just try to smile and don’t let things get to you 😉 .love.

harry potter is greatthe books are better thoxx

i like your diary:)green to make a scenetake care♥-stacey

you should definitely update more often. and do surveys too. i’ll read them all i promise.

i know the feeling. xoxoxo.<3 caitlyn

“you can’t miss what you forget”

ryn oh you’re one of THOSE gals. the ones with unassuming big breasts. I’ve known a handful–no pun intended– of such females in my time. 🙂

i really want you to feel better about this situation. no one deserves that kind of feeling. <3katie

Very powerful. Could feel every emotion in that. I’m sorry. //

Your diary colors make me want a wintergreen mint.

*hug* I hate daddy issues. I’m too much like my dad to deal with him rationally…does your problem partially stem from that as well? Other than that, I can just say that it’ll be okay, even though it really sucks to fight with a parent. *hug again* I hope things get better really soon.

funny how we humans only seem be able to control things adverselyfor example, you cancontrol you puppy’s bowels, but you can only give him exlaxwell, cheer up, he’ll grow up…sometimes they do that when someone makes them nervous

Ryn: Thank you sooooo much.

“i won’t let myself think about it because you can’t hurt me if i pretend you don’t exist. (but see, here come the tears.)”how wel i know the feeling. *hugs*love,

ryn;thank you.love,

“Father issues”…I haven’t seen mine in probably six years, and the issues are STILL there.

if you wonder why i don’t come home, it’s not me. it’s you.I’ve had that beforemuch lovenote me back sometime

i won’t let myself think about it because you can’t hurt me if i pretend you don’t exist.i am in love with that. I’m sorry that people are bringing you down. They shouldn’t you are a lovely person. I tend to stay in a corner, and not talk to anyone because i hate getting hurt. And i usually do. I dont trust most people, i hate it.love you dear,xoxo

“daddy” issues…. ugh. id like to meet a person, esp. a girl, who doesnt have those. my dad used to beat my mom (and us kids) all the time when they were still married… i try to forgive him, i really do…but it all comes back to “daddy” issues. I hope these issues get worked out somehow for you. Dads need a damn clue.

what relish we feel in just saying fuck you. xx

ryn: it’s amazing, huh? the desire i get to chase beauty with a camera when something hits me and inspires my gaze is so overwhelming sometimes. that’s why i never leave the house without a disposable camera. =) love your diary! xx

ryn;:) thank you.that’s so lovely of you to say!i’m not too worried about the ending itself.i guess i just aspire to be someone who, right now, i’m not.love,

RYN: I really think this is going to be the hardest think i ever have to do… i just hope he’s okay like what is he doing write now? pushups in the mudd? and im sitting home on my computer bitching. lol. its okay because when our boys come back the reunion will be amazing write? everything you dreamed of in the last couple months… i hope so

we all have problems with daddy. i know how you feel honey. your diary is beautiful. never stop writing. -n

Oh, dear… parents, quite frankly, don’t generally seem to understand or see reasoning as normal people do. But I completely understand… mine are the same way completely. I really hope everything gets resolved. But don’t stress, that’s time’s job sometimes. :/ xoxo

aww hun… hang in therethough it doesn’t seem like it right now,it’ll all blow over… promise stay strong xoxo

ryn: on the contrary! cyber reminders would at least be reminders, which is more than I’m getting right now! And I’d love to have you as my editor…I had a really good idea of a plot line yesterday that I should have written down…unfortunately I was in the shower, so that made the writing down somewhat difficult…maybe I should get some of those bathtime crayons I had when I was little in…

…case the same thing happens the next time I shower. It’s a thought at least. I’m trying, but as most of the people I’ve said that to have told me: sometimes I’m very trying, indeed. *smile*

god, im so sorry. i know how you feel though…it’s like you can never be good enough. <3

RYN: For real? What state do you live in because I have gone with my sister to pick them up before, they did give BAD stomach problems I just haven’t gotten there in the story, but thats freaky that you have to go to the hospital to get them. (and I love you diary layout by the way) lol

RYN: LOL!! We can have beer in our grocery stores! lol!! Hee Hee, sorry! I live in Florida. 🙂 (wrote again)

i like how the ‘fading’ and ‘out’ take turns as the titleon the front pageawesomenessxx

ryn// thanks…i bet you’re right(at least partially)i dunno…my parents are different from most in their beliefs though,so it might be a combination of many things.xox,

ryn// no, she doesn’t like him.. lol xoxo

ryn;i have a lot blood taken when i have to go for my annual cystic fibrosis review.fortunately, they take it in several takes.unfortunately, that doesn’t help when i have a slight needle phobia!xx;

i miss you m’dear! update soon 🙂 .love.