My Prayer Was Answered…
My darling Blossom improved rapidly for 2 days after our trip to the vet last week.
Then she began slipping.
Without going into all the background info about what was wrong….it became apparent (even to thick skulled me) that she was very ill and not going to recover. I might have to make THAT decision…the one that belongs to our Higher Power….the life and death one.
I raged at God. When I was done raging, I flat out laid out an ultimatum. I CAN NOT make that decision. You CAN NOT make me.
Tomorrow was the day the decision would have to be made. Blossom still took in fluids well, but insistently and stubbornly quit eating two days ago. Nothing could tempt her.
This morning, I awoke to find that Blossm had “moved on” during the night. All that was left, was her shell, on the floor at the bottom of my bed.
Chickie’s birthday is today. It was a really tough way to start a birthday.
My prayers were answered. I did not have to make the decision that had to be made. I am grateful for that…yet I am heartbroken. It’s hard to keep the performance up in front of the kids. I just want to scream at them………”HOW DARE YOU TALK OUT OF TURN WHEN MY DOG, MY FRIEND, MY PROTECTOR… IS DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!?????!!
I want to cry a river. I want to be angry. I want to be alone. I want a hundred people to surround me and tell me it’s ok.
I love my darling grouchy, not-too-bright, over-protective, fairly ugly, goofy Blossom….and I’m going to miss her a lot.
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I know what Blossom meant to you. I know, too, how hard it is to let go of Love, in whatever form it comes to us. It is so hard to let go of the furred-form of Love. It is so pure and so healing and so very lovely. This is what we sign up for, when we agree to Love. We take them into our hearts, and they take us into theirs. They Love us completely and teach us to do the same, with them, with (C)
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(2) our friends, with family, and with strangers. Then they leave. It always happens and it SUCKS so much when that time occurs. I am not sure what it is supposed to teach us, but I know the Love does not disappear. I am rambling a little, but I also know I am telling you this because I need to hear it, too. Big hugs, dear friend. It IS nice a blessing to not have to make that choice.
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Oh-oh-oh…I am so terribly sorry. So very, very sorry. It’s so hard. It’s so wrong. It’s so not fair. I lost my beloved Leon last April and he loved me enough to not make me make that decision too. The ultimate act of love on their part. I still miss my boy and I feel so badly for you. I wish I could come hold you and cry with you. Best friends are hard to lose. {{{Sunshine Wolf}}}
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Oh my dear, I am so sorry! This is heartbreaking. They do make a place for themselves in our hearts, don’t they? And we love them just like we love other humans. More, in some instances. I wish I could give you a big warm hug. Do try to spend time with a friend or friends, okay? Try to be around people who can comfort you. I’m just so sorry – so sad.
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So sorry to read this. I had to have my cat put to sleep and it was terrible. I still miss her. We get so attached to pets and more so to people. Life is life and loss is all part of it. Peacock Alley is a gay disco in Acapulco or was..maybe it has gone now. Why are dogs more faithful than people? I guess I will never know. Alexias
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I’m so sorry…losing a dear pet can be so hard.
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I’m so sorry, dearest Sunshine. Perhaps she is annoying the daylights out my cherished SJ who went on a year and a half ago. Or perhaps they’ve become friends. Who can say? With a big warm hug…
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Oh dear, SW, so sorry about Blossom’s passing but I’m glad you didn’t have to make that decision. I had to do that once 🙁 I said goodbye to my beautiful Golden the same year I lost my mother~
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Ohmigosh, P — how absolutely terribly awful to lose Blossom!!!! I am sitting here crying right now because there is nothing worse, and I really mean that, than losing your dog. I am so very grateful Blossom made the choice for you. Both times I lost a hound, they made the decision for me, too. I hope it continues that way. I’m thinking of you, my dear!!!!!!
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oh hon I’m soo sorry to hear about blossum, hands you a lemon poppyseed muffin I know it won’t make it better but the warm muffin a nice cup o tea and you should feel all warm a fuzzy, hope to see you soon… Lael
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HUGS to you. Quite glad you did not have to make that decision and she snuck away while you were sleeping. Go on and rant, it’s okay.
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I know how heartbreaking this is…about 6 years ago I could not bear to put my Beau down (17 yr old Maine Coon Cat)…every night he slept snuggled at the back of my legs…the last week he would only sleep under my rocker and one morning my grandson cld not wake him…he went peacefully in his sleep. You have my prayers….. Love, …………
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I am so sorry… {{{{{Sunshine Wolf}}}}}
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*tears* She was a wonderful friend, I’m sorry I know how much it hurts. It’s one of the reasons it took me soooo long to get Butler. After losing my cat of 15 years it took me a long time to gather up the courage to start once again. They bring so much, love, joy, friendship. (((((((((hugs))))))))
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Hi, I wish that you weren’t so far away. I am in Michigan and am fostering a 9 yr. old Bichon Frise who was rescued from a “puppy mill” She was used as a breeding female all her live. She is so sweet. We had to have her teeth all pulled as they were all rotted due to poor care. Go to Small Paws Rescue and look at the dogs avail. for adoption. She is the one listed as Spring.
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OMG…how terrible. I’m so sorry I missed this. I’m SO sorry about your fur girl. I’m just so sorry. ~:(
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