Catching UP – first and last time

I had a request in my notes to catch my diary up on what’s been happening in the off time I took. Well, I had actually been avoiding that – but for no particular reason. Guess I can catch up – some day I’ll want to look back and remember – I think.

DAD When I left my father’s house in mid December I was really worried. I must confess, I was as worried for myself as I was for him. Selfish? Maybe. True? Oh, yeah. You see, I was terrified that this new condition of sciatica would render him crippled and unable to deal with life on his own. That would mean I would move home. That’s just the way it is. I am maintaining a healthy distance from him as long as I can. BUT, when push comes to shove, I will go home and care for him when that’s the only choice left. Actually, I have modified my stance even on that as of late. I am actively going to try and move him to where I am if he gets into that condition. When I left, I arranged physical therapy for him and a daily visit from a woman to help him clean, cook, go to appointments, etc. He was pretty miserable for a while. The bottom line seems to be that this condition will never leave, he just has to learn to live with it. Now he is doing better. HOWEVER, the stupid doctors have him convinced that if he lets anyone touch him, he will end up paralyzed or dead. So….no alternative forms of healing, which I have trying to sell him on. Energy medicine. It’s non-invasive. It’s not going to wrench his back. ARGH!

YOUNG STUD bless everything about him, is in school full time at his father’s expense. He has finally found his passion for a career I think. He is studying to be a structural engineer. Now, I have no clue what those folks do or what the job market is like, but he really wants to do this – so GO FOR IT! He’s in for a few tough years to get there, but he’ll do fine. He has an old soul and has traveled these paths many times.

CHICKIE bless her twice. She is a 14 year old girl. That should sum it all up. Some days I want to choke her. Some days I want to sing her praises to everyone and anyone. For some reason, life is much more difficult with her than it was with Young Stud. Must be that mother/daughter thing, huh? Next year – High School! Oy!!!!

SISTER DEAR now here’s a tough one. Her #2 son has turned out to be an abusive alcoholic. Couple that with the other decisions she is trying to make in her life – and her road is pretty bumpy right now. The current status seems to be that she is going to go to Massage Therapy school near where she lives, which is a 5 hour drive from here. She will go to school 3 days a week and then make the trek here for the other 4 days. All this to avoid putting herself in jeopardy in her own house, because of her son. Sounds crazy, but unless her husband backs her and forces this ADULT to move out on his own – she is refusing to come back to stay. I applaud her for taking care of herself. She has devoted her entire life to taking care of everyone else.

WORK Almost a year for this job. Whew! I think I finally found my “home”. I had a rough year until I got there, but I learned SO much from those jobs – I guess it was all for the best – all the tears, doubts and headaches. There is a deal going on right now that I cannot discuss, but I have been included and that is so awesome! I think they like me!

OTHER I am taking classes on healing with energy. It is amazing. I am not sure I “Get” it yet – but I’m sticking with it. I am still rather distant from other people, and I need to change that – get some friends and someday – maybe even a partner. (Gasp!) I go to movies, read books – and work ALL the time. I need more – and maybe , just maybe, I am now at a point when I can start to get it!

So there it is – the down and dirty condensed version. Hope no one has been put to sleep by my BORing life!