March 17, 2000

Warning! Danger! Watch Your Step! Duck!!

All of the words in the title of today’s diary entry should probably be made into signs posted on my door right now. While life is good as the goddess victorious, there are other areas where certain – ahem – issues, shall we say, have arisen.

I am a nicotine fiend. I smoke cigaretts and have since I was 15 or 16. I’ve quit a few times, and it lasts for several months – up to a year. But then the devil grabs me in the arse…..and I light up again. (Sort of a strange reaction to being grabbed in the arse….but there it is).

I know it’s affecting my health. Quite obviously it’s affecting my wallet. I need to quit, but I don’t reallly want to. But I need to. And this is a need coming from inside myself – not something that I am being told by others. My self is saying to me “Self, you NEED to quit!”. So….I’m giving it a go. I’m a whole 12 hours into this quitting business and I am already over it. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Perhaps this is not good timing. I have been moody of late, not knowing what I want or how to get it if I did. I recognize that I need to get out and get a life….but have not done anything about that as of yet. I want someone to lead me by the hand which is REALLY funny because the minute anyone tries that, I’ll rebel with every fiber of my being.

I want a love in my life – no wait a minute, no I don’t. That means compromise, right? Sorry, I can’t do that right now. Yes, My Name is Sunshine Wolf and I have AUTONOMY ISSUES.

So, what’s going on right now? Issues are flying through my head like jumping beans on speed. I can’t focus, I can’t make a decision, I can go from zero to bitch in .00000000000000000000001 seconds (which is an improvement from my old time .00001). “DUCK!” Would be the most appropriate piece of advice that I could give anyone that needs to be around me right now. Is it the phase of the moon, the position of the planets, the time of year……….or has Sunshine Wolf finally been bitten by one too many diseased fleas? (scratch, scratch)

Well, no cigaretts……so I guess I’ll go to the grocery store – now THERE’s a healthy substitute!

can I hold your hand, sweetie? Last night I had 3 drags on a cigarette after 22 days smoke-free…but I don’t want any more…it is SO hard, but feels SO good, at the same time…especially not to be hacking in

the morning! Did you notice there’s a Quit Smoking Diary? I took a diary there and it kind of helps to talk to other people going through the same feelings. Good luck, Sunshine!! Who loves ya, baby? US!!!!!

Sounds like you need a little distrqction right now. Not in the least faint hearted, let me take you to lunch…..just let me get my garlic necklace, my Clutch Cargo decoder ring & the crucifix & I’ll be set 🙂 Hugs

I was going to quit smoking when cigarettes went up to a dollar a pack. LOL I am still smoking and they are WAY higher than a dollar.I need to quit too.

Quit,webcat!!!!!!

ahhh, come on, Sunshine! You didn’t hear Torin or me putting an x-rating on you, now didja? *with a cajoling smile…

The deputy I am working with as we speak is quitting too. He just left the office. Now I’m a basket case ! Glad I don’t live with him. Quack,quack, gobble, gobble. (Duck, turkey)

Congratulations SW, try a long walk when you are able, it’s a good alternative. Peace and love darlin,

Keep thinking “short term cost, long term reward”. I’m thinking of ya…

Hugs!!!! The evil that is the chemicals tossed on the tabac by the cig companies is a drug. SOrry it has a hold on you. Here, drink some more of this green rootbeer and try chewing on a tabac leaf?

Just don’t go the jellybean route. THink of all the poor little ones that could have grown into huge jellybean trees, leafy coloured branches tossing about the skies, brightly attacting birds that poop.

Hey Sunshine, as usual I have a remedy to quit smoking, but you probably won’t want to hear it, or just maybe you do? LOL It involves other activities sure to take your mind off cigarettes!! LOL

You’ll make it… from one challenge to the next. After all… You ARE the Goddess, right? Correction.. from one Success to the Next! :)**HUGS**

By the way, a Wolf can hug a Moose. Meeses like me never turn ’em down.

The phrase used at our house to denote it’s PMS time is, “Stay Low, Move Fast.” You can borrow it for any situation you might find apropos. XOXO

erhh… good luck!… note to follow, too long to go into here… hope you got some good stuff at the grocery… when I try to quit, I find Tylonol PM works wonders! Just sleep your way through….

just back, note was tooo long and tooo boring! so– Good Luck ya Non-Smoking Goddess!

I quit over 2 years ago. Was real hard, but now I couldn’t be happier. You can do it. I know you can. Okay, I’ll shut up before you hit me. (I don’t have my suit of armor on. Hehe) Love = Hugs,

You can do it! Think positive-say “I don’t need or want a cigarette.” Later you will say, “Ugh how did I ever smoke those things?” I’m voice of experience.

Hang in there Sunshine wolf. If my grandmother who started smoking when she was 16 could stop smoking at 70 so can you. No one can do it for you.

chutes

March 18, 2000

You need hobbies, fast. Brain surgery. Hanging from a pole perpendicularly. I know–composing speeches for political candidates!

Sunshine and Sweet Dreams, struggling with cigarettes! Been there, done that. Thank you for the kind comment. I’m a slow learner, and I’ve worked through a lot of the past, but the scars are still there. Good luck from another smoke stack.

Kicking cigs is very tough indeed. Wife did it, was such an out-of-control you-know-what that the sons and I begged her to start again. It was either that or shoot her. 🙂

I don’t know if this will help but on the OD main page (scroll down a little) there’s a link to the Quit Smoking OD. You might find some support there as well as here. Good Luck to you!!

Gads, I’ve only been gone 2 weeks. Smoking, bets, holiday buses, shoplifting, fly bys, and I still have more enteries to catch up on! Lions and tigers and bears, oh my! What has happened here Dear Wolf?

Keep trying! At times things have grabbed my by the arse also, but isn’t want for a smoke! I’ve noticed also of us have been going through certain feeling lately.

Willy & Wilma

March 20, 2000

Sunshine, there are better ways to die than by emphysema and lung cancer. Fear of death is a dam powerful incentive to quit and stay quit. Unfortunately,the slow kind lulls you into thinking it wont happen to you

I rue the day I smoked my first cigarette–haven’t made it a whole year yeat without one, but I’m trying. I saw my grandfather die of emphysema, and will probably see my dad die of it, too. I’m trying to

look at it as breaking the cycle… maybe if I can quit completely before I have kids, then maybe MY kids will never start. *crossing fingers*