Amazing Weekend

Just spent the best ever weekend with Mike.  Really could not be better!! (Except for my little paranoia attack this morning… more about that later)

Drove 250 miles (!!!) to his on Thursday and we drove down to the beach and had fish and chips by the harbour and fooled about on the beach. It was really romantic! Back at his we just chilled out, had lots of fun together and watched Dirty Dozen.

Friday morning, we set off to the campsite in "Toby", Mike’s VW campervan.  I’m in love with that van!!!  The campsite was gorgeous and we spent til Sunday, messing around by the lake, canoeing, playing, chatting,getting to know each other better… generally having the best time possible.

He cooked for me loads, gave me his hoody when I got cold, made me breakfast in bed, kept making cups of tea, just a complete gentleman!! He obviously cares for me as much as I do him 🙂  He even properly asked me out, so I am officially somebody’s girlfriend!! I have an amazing boyfriend!!! 🙂

Sunday night, I spent at his again, chilling out, watching Top Gear, and just enjoying being with each other.

He left for work this morning, and left me to play on his PC a bit so I missed rush hour traffic.  I found a file with my name, so clicked on it, and it was all our facebook conversations he’d saved… So lovely.  Then saw another girls name, so being bloody nosey, clicked on that, and found he’d had very similar (rude) conversations with another girl last week.  Gutted.  I text him and just said that basically, it had to stop if we were going out.  He was cross that I’d been snooping (although REALLY not intentionally) and he told me off for being paranoid.  He’s done so much for me this weekend and obviously cares about me a great deal.  He just thought I should trust him more, which I should… Just after all the shit with Mark, that’s what happened, he’d been messing about online and it lead to him cheating on me…  A girl can’t help being paranoid when it’s happened before!

Any advice on how to stop being paranoid, particularly when I totally trust Mike and I really want this to work!!!???!