Farewell

Okay so I saw Travis last night and I shouldn’t have. I should have kept to what I said I was going to do and that was just leave him alone. He has said some pretty hurtful things since I got back from California and said some pretty hurtful things while I was in Cali. I shouldn’t have gone to see him because everything that I felt before I left for Thanksgiving came back into play and now I want to walk away but don’t know if I can. I texted him last night when I got home so he knew I got home okay and he’s getting back to the guy I first met. He called me just to say night beautiful. He told me that I looked gorgeous last night. All I was wearing was a pair of jeans, a hoodie, and of course shoes and stuff. My hair was down…shock shock and I was wearing no make-up. He reels me back in everytime I say I am walking away. But I really do think that I am done. I can’t handle it anymore. I put myself out there and I keep getting nothing back in return. I had fallen asleep the other night while texting him and he came to this conclusion that I had someone in my bed with me so he told me I was gonna ask you to be with me but not if your gonna be like this. So yesterday morning I called him and left him a voice mail saying I don’t know how many times I have to tell you that I am not seeing anyone else. And if that’s how you are going to treat me then just leave me alone. About an hour later he sends me a text saying I’m sorry. I’m hurting and when I’m hurting I say hurtful things. Please forgive me. And my stupid ass did. I knew it was a mistake but I did anyways. I am walking away from him. Its the only way that I can do this. I will update later.