Murder in a small town

Do you ever have those days when nothing you do is good enough for anyone? I am so having one of those days. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I am trying very hard to change my habit of putting everyone’s happiness before my own and I started to do that and now it seems to be coming back to bite me in the butt. I just don’t know what people want from me anymore. I love it here in my small town don’t get me wrong. I am a better person for moving here. I know that moving from Cali was the best thing at the time of the move. But this small town is killing me. I can’t breathe here anymore. I feel like nothing I do is good for anyone around here. This trip to Kentucky is very much needed. I just dont know what to do anymore. I try and do what is best for me and it makes people angry with me. I just can’t seem to win. I have my family telling me do what you need to do to make yourself happy and when I do it back fires. Grrr. I’m so lost. This is the time that I really need my best friend. She always knows how to make me feel better without even trying. It’s crazy how she does it but it always works. So right now the title of my entry fits because I am slowing dying here. Well I gotta run.