Stupid fucking idiot

Well Bryan pretty much told me that the only reason him and I haven’t gotten together is because he is extremely afraid to lose the friendship that we have. He told me that I am one of his best friends. That I have no idea how much it means to him to know that all he has to do is pick up the phone and call me and i will be there and understand. I told him that I am afraid of the same thing but I am not going to let the fear stop me and he shouldn’t let it stop him either.

On another note…he knows I’m not too happy right now. I am really tired of getting messages from his ex telling me to back off because they are supposedly back together. And that if I don’t I’m not gonna like the consequences. Then she tells me to stop texting and calling him because he supposedly told her that he told me. Well I talked to him today and he even told me that that’s not what he wants. He doesn’t want to lose me. If I get one more message I just might end up walking away…and he doesn’t want that. He even told me that today. But I don’t know how much more of this I can handle. I am tired of being told that all I am doing is causing problems. Well that’s all for now.

Katie…I love you very much. You will always be my wife. I miss you.

Jas…You know I love you. I miss you

Bry…Even though you can’t read this you know that I love you. I’ve already told you that.

I’m outie