Good and bad

So I really like Brian. For some reason he likes me too. I know I know…stop it. I’m working on it. He made me promise. He just makes me feel so good about myself. Yet again we had a really long conversation on the phone. I loved every minute of it except for one part. He hates and I mean HATES a man who lays his hand on a woman. Well Jas was touching a bruise on my left arm and I said ow that hurts. He asked what happened. Well I can’t lie. So I told him. I said remember that guy that I dated when I first moved out here and he said yea I remember you telling me about him. I said well he left that one and three other ones. I told hiim about them. He is soooo pissed that he wants to kill him. Hopefully he will be careful and not do anything that is going to cause me to lose him. I don’t want him to walk out of my life. I really care about him. I know it hasn’t been that long but I haven’t had a guy make me feel this way about myself in a really long time. Also last night while we were talking Kevin (jas’s man) told him to talk to his girl and I said I’m not his girl. Apparently his jaw dropped out of amazment. It wasn’t my fault. I’m really not his girl. I want to be bur right now there is so much going on that he feels like it’s better to be friends for a little longer. It makes me worried cause it makes me think that there might be someone else but I know or I should say hope that it’s not true. I know it has something to do with his mom.  Well that’s all. i got some house work to do. I’m supposed to see him tonight. But we’ll see.