I don’t understand!

Raindrops Fall All Around Me…

Man am I depressed! When is this gonna end? I wish there was someone next to me so I can lay my head on their shoulder….even if I didn’t ask them first. I just feel like I need someone to just hug me because I hardly have any of that anymore. I use to have friends who I could do that with….but they are all far away. This sucks so bad!
I’m so heart broken right now. I”ve prayed everynight for God to take it away. Usually he does….but now I’m starting to think that I’m depressed about something else…because when I think about it, I really don’t know why I’ve been crying every night. It’s all a mystery to me. I do feel alone because I have no one here in TN to really talk to…but when I tell people that, I feel like I’m forgetting to say what else is bothering me. I don’t understand. I’ve been walking down the hallways with my head hung low…I know I do because I would look in the mirror in the bathroom and see that. I don’t know what’s wrong. Can someone here try to help me with this one. I wanna be able to let God take it away, but I feel I can’t do that unless I no what’s going on first. I want to be able to face it so I can become stronger. I want to be strong for those who are not…
…well, someone let me know soon if you can.

I’m guess I’m gonna go. I love you all. Take care and God bless.
In Loving Spirits,
~Amber~

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Im praying for you!! Thank YOU for your prayers!! If ya need me xcoldtragedyx <– AIM screen name

you don’t kno me. my name is jaqulin. I know exatcly how you feel. I hope you figure out wut is wrong….and i hope you can let GOD take it away. YOu deserve to be happy….even if you aren’t. There are still people out there who love you very much…and if i were there i would be one of them. I wish you the best of luck ~jaqi*

you rock my world

ryn; never settle for less than your bestif you think he is worth it, go for itjust don’t set yourself up for disaster…

Hi. This is Olivia again. You know, maybe you’re on to something. Have you been in the Word everyday, and praying? Sometimes we get down because God is trying to do something. He’s trying to change our hearts, and we don’t want anything to do with it. Sometimes there is a sin in our hearts that he wants out. Like maybe your grandma. Maybe he wants you to love her anyway. And if you can’t

love her, that’s okay. God can love her through you. Ask him to love your grandma through you.

Hey..its me again. I hope we can become friends..and reassure and pray for eachother. I have in in my favorites…so i’m here for you whenever you need me. Thank you…for being you. ~jaqi*

I’m not really sure where I left off (sorry for stop talking. Mom sat down right beside me) But, after I talked to him about not worrying with other people..he was just so..He said he didn’t want me to hurt and he asked me if I even wanted him to stop having anything to do with me..i told him no. Cause I don’t. I just want things to be right and I told him that. I told him ” I just wish it could..

either make everything I think about you go away and stop fu c k ing with my head or I want it to be right.” and I don’t know what’s gonna happen between us now because he said ” I’m looking so hard for someone to be with and I think I found her and now I’m gonna back off of her because I see what I’m doing to you. I see how I’m doing you. I didn’t see it.” and I was confused..I still am….

Because he said ” wait..Just wait.” and I said ” wait for what?” and he said ” wait..” and I said ” what am I waiting for?!” he said ” wait.”