Tired of this.

So mum and I were supposed to go for lunch.

And she tells me that she wants a third student to stay with us.

And I guess I sighed and she got so pissed off.

She thinks I’m entitled cause I don’t want 3 strangers living with us.

And it’s like … I said I was okay with 2, you can’t just keep adding them!

Right, cause we host international students every summer for extra income.

And she has it in her head that I don’t do anything towards helping her when they come.

And it’s like … woah, back up there, I do A LOT for them … cooking, laundry, cleaning, social whatever.

And it’s like … so yeah, excuse me if I’m not happy to have to be looking after 3 guys now while studying.

And excuse for being concerned that I need time (and quiet) to study for my MCAT (for med school) and complete summer courses.

I saw how hard my brother studied for his MCAT and how he basically isolated himself and he IS a life science student whereas I’m not.

He would’ve kicked up a huge fuss if all of a sudden mum had told him she was accepting 3 strangers into the house to look after.

And I never assumed that mum was going to help pay for anything so why is she bitching to me that I don’t appreciate her work.

I accept full responsibility to pay for everything related to school and I’ve been doing that for the past 3 years so she needs to stop.

Even when she offers money, I have never accepted in the past. Why? BECAUSE I don’t want to be in her debt. She’ll just bitch more.

I saw how she treated my brother when he would accept some of her offers to help with his tuition and other costs.

It usually ended up with her blowing up at some point and demanding he pay her back all the money the next day.

So it really gets to me when she says I’m entitled and that everything is revolving around me. Like really?

She complains about preparing meals … and it’s like … oh the sandwich you occasionally make me? Dinner, yes, but that’s all.

And it’s not like we have fancy dinners … preparing baked beans on toast takes what? …. less than 10 minutes to make?

And cleaning … I do all of that for all the house. Laundry ….  prior to reading week I had been doing it straight for 3 months.

Driving me to the subway she DOES do … but that’s like a 5 minute drive that she bitches about … and it’s like, why bother asking.

Once spring comes around I’m just going to walk to the bus stop to stop her bitching at me about a 5 minute car ride.

Oh … god and then she was like ‘you always say no’ when she asks me to do things …

And it’s like hang on … are you having flashbacks to my brother because i NEVER say no when she asks for help.

And she pulls out the example of helping her bring in the shopping and it’s like HANG ON you do shopping when I’m NOT HOME.

Like wtf? Shall I teleport home? And she gets mad that I’m not home. And it’s like … I’m in fucking class!! What can I possibly do?

So there’s a difference between me saying I don’t want to help her and me not even being there for her to ask!

So as usual her logic is fucked and she has no argument and gets more angry when I call her out on it.

And it’s not even like I stood there arguing with her … I just listened and thought, wtf?

So then she was like ‘I don’t even want to go out for lunch because I’m so pissed off”

And it’s like … well I’m steps ahead of you there … why would I even entertain the thought?

So another day she ruins.

And I don’t have time for this.

I have freaking midterms to prepare for.

And it’s like she thinks I have nothing to do.

Would she like to look at my schedule for March?

I completed it yesterday and it shows I have no time to breath.

Ridiculous.