Awkward dream.

Okay sooo I’ve been logging my food and yeah, it’s def. what I eat outside the house that’s killing me. But that’s something that’s easy to cut out, and I mean it’s not like I’m eating out, like at fast-food restaurants or anything, it’s just the occasional Timmies/McDonalds coffee/ice cap. Soooo like I said, it’s easy to change, oh and then at home I sub my tea/hot choc for green tea so I don’t have chocolate, sugar, or milk. So I guess people are right when they say you drink your calories! Well of course they’re right, haha, I never questioned it XD. So I started exercising … a bit sore when I woke up … but as usual, I find it good. If I wake up and don’t feel anything then I’d actually be concerned. Oh the other night was so weird with my dream, I had a totally virgin-esque lesbian dream which is odd. I don’t think I’ve had one dream in which I’ve played the quintessential awk newbie … even in the dream I was like ”Wtf am I so awk??? I couldn’t even kiss properly! Or maybe cause when I kiss guys in my dream I can be as forceful as I want. And because it was with a girl I had to like tone it down. She was pretty, she was Asian, she WAS my friend (in the dream) … and I had a really nice bra/undies set on … although in the beginning I was clothed … in bed (haha, I was reading in bed clothed … weird). And she came into my room, and I didn’t react like abnormal, so maybe it was like a sleep over?, and I had told her I hadn’t been able to sleep (which is true, that night I had like 2 hours sleep, so that reality seeped into my dream), and so I turned on my side away from her (like in normal sleep overs) and she sorta said over my shoulder to ‘concentrate’. Me being real in my dreams, I was like wtf kind of advice is that?, so I didn’t respond and she like then whispered into my ear ‘concentrate’ and I was like … ahhhh, why is she whispering in my ear? Call me a non-romantic but I can’t stand when people whisper in my ear. It makes me shudder and not in the good way! And before you know she had me like on my back, blah blah blah, no actual sex cause my alarm rang. Lol. But like I said the only weird thing about that was how awkward I was in it. Like I’ve had a lesbian dream like once/twice before, but I was never awkward like that haha. Anyways … oh so volunteering was good yesterday. There are like 5 volunteers there now. I and another girl used to be the only ones there. Ohhh even better, there was a Spanish speaking patient who couldn’t speak English. And I actually got to speak Spanish with her and she actually understood me! Although I fucked up the subjunctivo on one verb. I TRIED. Lol. Oh and the new international student we have … he’s from Mexico and I was sad he wasn’t good looking … come on, a girl can dream! But he’s nice and normal so that’s always great. I don’t have much to say about him :/ I’ve barely been around him. He came Sunday evening, so that was a few hours, uhm I was tired yesterday evening, anddd I have school this evening. Otherwise he’s at school all day. So yeah ..