I hope not …
Hmm so I was reading about endometriosis. I am hoping that I don’t have it! I’m waiting for my referral to the gyno to come through. I’ve never been to one – just regular bits at the fam. doctor. I was looking through the ‘symptoms’ and it was like goshdarnitpleaseno! I don’t want it to be ‘one more thing’ again >_<. Anyways … I had an informative google session though lol. I started out reading about pain after orgasms (sorry for TMI) … oh, before reading about endometriosis. Like it feels good for a second, then I get really bad cramps. It’s like that area is in a vise, and I can’t really move/breath, for maybe 5-10 mins directly after, then it’s still cramping less intensely for 15-20 mins afterward. But the thing is … I’m not ON my period at the time, it’s just in the week leading up to it. But I assume I’d have that pain DURING my period. And obvi. I haven’t tried that out or I’d know for sure. Anyways, the solution is not to engage in sexual activity one week before and during the week I have it. But I mean … what the hell? That’s half a month, and thus, half a year, right? Anyways, so other women said they have that pain too. And when they asked their gynos or fam. doctors, they basically responded with ‘That’s weird’ (try: painful as f*ck). Anyways then eventually I made by way to endometriosis because my mum was worried I might have it *sigh*.
Uhm the hour’s up and I have to get back to studying. I did all the previous exams and they were pretty easy. But I’m maybe 1/4 way through reviewing the year’s material (I guess that means my memory is pretty good). My goal is to do half today and half tomorrow. There are only a few tenses that I have to check with. Like I know how to answer them in English tenses, but I couldn’t remember the Spanish ones. Oh and I had another A in my other course … so now I’m just waiting for 2 more marks (including for my exam this Monday). Theeeen after 4 pm on Monday I am (un)officially done my second year of university! I say unofficially because I need to know all my final marks lol. Anyways then I’ll be getting together with everyone so we can celebrate the end of year! 😀 / 🙁 depending. I really miss K and L because well K is over seas and L is MIA always butttt they’re like our group’s rocks and I miss them – the nights just aren’t as … calm? … without them. Oh crap and then A is staying in her university’s town for the summer to do courses. She’s not a rock by any means but I’ll miss her still :(. Not that I have oodles of time to hang out with full time work + 10 hours of volunteering/wk … I’m never around all the time …
Oh and S (not THAT S, the good one) has another boyfriend. And I’m happy for her BUT I’m hesitant too. See .. she has depression, and in the past, boyfriends have been a no-no for her depression. Something ALWAYS goes wrong and she can’t ever handle it. And she said it’s been a few months since she had an episode, and you know, that has been the few months WITHOUT a boy. And she can’t really see this pattern she’s creating for herself, you know? So I hope it all works out, but I can bet it won’t :(. I mean we’re 20 right, no one’s getting married, flings start and end … but for now, he seems like a sweetie, and that’s why I am happy at min. But to be fair … she does pick weird boys for herself, they’re not weird for others, just for her specifically, like … it sounds bad to say she doesn’t do anything fun … but her previous boyfriends WERE fun-loving … so when she brought them out like we’d be chatting it up, but when she was just alone with him they’d be silent together? (Yeah … just a bit awk …). She said this boy shares her values, so maybe it will last longer, so I wish her good look! <3 She’s a total sweetheart.