Nostalgia
There are so many stories I trace in my mind
each ending linked to the next beginning
forced meanings and obscured desires
I don’t even remember what I initially needed
love, home, family, is there anything more?
every day I am missing more pieces
my tenuous connections crumbling away,
or simply forgotten
I once believed I was a a beautiful person
I think there was a time that… it did not hurt
to look at old photographs and
smell perfume without breathing in nostalgia
I think of that summer every day
it’s not something that can be helped,
I don’t have the power to turn my attention away
New questions always seem to have old answers
but buried there,
beneath the separation loneliness
I guard that bubble that formed in my heart
and it is worth the pain,
the days spent missing the words I didn’t say
just so I can have that summer,
always holding my hand, so I am safe…
as I try to link together all that came after