all my love?

Is it possible to give all your love away? I’m not talking about the you have my whole heart and no one else can have it. I’m talking about loving someone so hard and for so long and not getting any in return until finally there isn’t any left? I’m so scared of this. Don’t you know I’m not me unless I’m loving you? What will I do if that happens. I’ll be empty. I know I have my kids and that is a love unlike any other but this is us. US! I ask if you missed me and you say no. Don’t you realize I miss you even when you’re in the same room as me if we aren’t within touching distance? I’m sure your intentions are good, but they are painful. I just want you to love me. I want to feel it for more than a couple of days at a time. I don’t like feeling a million miles away when we are in the same house, in the same bed… I just want you. I really want you. you’re not trying to be mean? Then why am I crying myself to sleep so much? Jesus Christ I’m insane and I’m out of ideas. Yet I still can’t walk away. There is nothing in me that could even begin to try.