are you angry?are you searching for a better way?

i
want
to
quit

and by quit i mean school and work.. i want to be a lazy American basking the sun while my income deteriorates… ah yes..

i am in hate right now. i feel trapped at points. and yet i realize the stupidity of it all.. how complaining and whining gets me farther from reaching my goals..how by the end of the day im a bitter hag that lashes at her boyfriend (best friend) at the dumbest things..

the worst is we never see each other anymore. when hes home im gone when hes gone im home..i kiss him goodbye each morning,to which he replies by rolling over- eyes closed..groaning in that “im not coherent” way..its really adorable (but i dont tell him that)

im shitty hungry. shitty hungry= being really really hungry but not having any money in the bank or any food in your fridge..we have that lone can in the back of the cabinet that has been there since we moved in and hasnt been touched…what is it? ah yes, red beans… yeah im good..

thunderstorm is here..its been lovely out so i have the door open..lights down low…yea imma fall asleep like this…