04.03.00 (Email I Wish I Could Send To Matt)

Subject: If I had your address, I’d send you a letter. Emails are so impersonal.

To Dearest Matt,

I like you. I really like you. Out of every gorgeous guy that  I happen to bump into, I choose YOU. I’ve liked you from the start, always have and still do. It’s been a year.

A year in which I have waited and waited for you to SEE IT. And to tell you the truth, a year in which I have also been compromising my definition of the casual relationship and surrendering to yours’ ("Just for the fun times.") just to be with you. To have you. And yet I’ve never even had you.

But I can’t do it anymore. Because I’ve finally realised that you really don’t wanna know.

So I’m not going to go out of my way any longer. I don’t feel like partying this year, so I won’t be going to the club… And if that means not seeing you again, then so shall it be.

Even though it hurts.

[The following was written and then scribbled out] Well, I guess that’s all I really wanted to tell you. I enjoyed the fun times last year. But just remember that although it may not have been for you, the night I gave myself away, was really special. [end]

Well, I guess that’s all I really wanted to tell you.l

[The following was written and then scribbled out] I’ll always treasure the memories we’ve created. [end]

See ya ’round.

Love:

Diosa