Just Blah Blah Blah about Nothing

I have had enough. Absolutely enough. I am so SICK of this flu that only seems to be getting worse and worse ! So much for REST being all you basically need, like in the "good old days". It SO isn’t so !! Not when you’re the kind of person who NEEDS to be DOING STUFF and can’t help but stress all the while that THIS isn’t being done and THAT isn’t being done, and perhaps that very stress is what’s making it worse !! I am OVER my bed… I am SO over my bed.. I have decided to just hop up and hang around my house, even if there is still not much I can accomplish given my low energy levels.

I am pleased to announce that we finally have the laptop hard-drive back, and so here I am, typing here AT LEISURE. None of this silly QWERTY keyboard business on the mobile, and half the short entries not saving anyway.

Speaking of which, I have finally made the switch BACK to my old phone. I have had enough of the ritzy new Nokia with QWERTY keyboard and internet access – it has proved to be THE MOST IMPRACTICAL phone I have EVER had !! Sinjay keeps laughing at me, saying that he has no issue with the phone at all. Well *I* do. I HATE that I absolutely HAVE TO slide it open every time I need to use it. And I HATE that I absolutely HAVE TO use both hands to type up a simple text !! The other day, I was running late to meet up with Mel and had to quickly send a "Running late – will be there by 10:30" text, which I can EASILY do with my old phone (hiding it from the public) with ONE HAND, in a few seconds. But no, on this fine day I was sneaking in some typing – with both hands – while stopping at lights etc, and it proved to be Mission Impossible. I didn’t bother sending a text at all. And once Bubba comes, I will have more than enough on my plate – the LAST THING I need is a stupid fucking fancy phone that does nothing but cause me grief. Sure, I don’t have internet access on the mobile now (because the old phone isn’t internet-capable) but that is fine. I have lived without internet on the mobile for… how many years? Since mobiles were existent ?? Mmm. It’s not the end of the world, really. I’m not Gen-Y.

(Hahaha, gotta love my cynicism towards the Gen-Y. Really, I don’t care when you were born – but if you can’t live without gadgets, or can’t live without ANYTHING : Gen-Y. And no, I don’t consider it a compliment. Can you tell?)

I have to admit I am equally frustrated and fascinated by Sam. A lot of the things we have issues with in the household are simply because of the way SHE does things – herein the frustration. (And she is very Gen-Y haha). But then, there are a lot of things that she does that I am fairly proud of. She just knows how to keep herself busy with cleaning and tidying up, and her art, and even washing down the blow-up pool she bought recently! Mind you, Louis had packed it up already but apparently did a horrible job of it. So she UNPACKS it, and wipes it down properly, and has hung it out to dry – before she’ll be packing it away PROPERLY. I’m like wow, you go girl! lol. I guess it helps that she was brought up an "outdoors girl" whereas Louis was brought up a little princess and doesn’t know how to do SHIT.

Anyhow, so the House Meeting was good. I think that it’s worked in the sense that it’s given them a little realisation that this house really is OUR HOUSE. Sam has de-cluttered the general living areas of all her crap (magazines, puzzles, art etc).. and we’ve decided to each look after our own dishes. (Sinjay was very outright with this, "We don’t cook as much as you guys, and we find that when it’s our turn to do the dishes we’re washing a lot of the stuff you guys have used for cooking, so we end up washing more stuff than we would." They had no argument – it is plain truth. Me & Sinjay use very little kitchen stuff – bowls for morning cereal, I might use "a" saucer for a sandwich during the day, two plates or bowls to eat dinner out of (which is generally a VERY SIMPLE dinner – noodles or pasta or burritos or sandwich melts), and a pot and some utensils if we actually used a pot to cook in that night. Whereas Louis & Sam (okay SAM.. because I haven’t seen Louis cook ONE MEAL since she’s moved in.. to my shock and horror by the way – it’s like, were you born in the 30’s kid? You DO know there was a whole Women’s Revolution in the 70’s right? Oh no, that’s right, you’re a Gen-Y and probably therefore dum enough to GO BACK to the 50’s era when men expected women to do "womens work"). Anyhow, so SAM cooks and bakes every single day. By the end of the day there’s pots and pans, baking dishes, up to 3 chopping boards, millions of utensils including measuring cups and spoons, you-name-it, waiting to be washed.

Anyhow, at first I was concerned that if we each looked after our own dishes, the system would get abused because it would be like, "Well, WE used those dishes, so WE’LL wash them whenever WE want to." It was Sam’s concern too, and she shared this with me. She was concerned that they might need something and it would be in our pile of dishes to wash. I assured her it was my concern too – but that this is precisely why we must all be conscientious of each others’ needs and make sure to keep on top of our own dish-washing. And it has honestly worked. The kitchen bench is tidier and cleaner than I have seen it in MONTHS. And trust me, there won’t be much in OUR pile that THEY’LL need anyway because we don’t tend to use the same cooking equipment (aside from the pots maybe). I am QUITE HAPPY with the way it has worked out thus far.

The only bad thing is that they seem to now hang out in their own room a lot more than they were doing. Well, they were doing it anyway – but it almost seems as though NOW they’re expressly just hanging out in their own room. And I think that that is sad because certainly that was NOT our intention – to make them feel like they cannot "be around" you know? It just comes down to the CLEANLINESS and TIDINESS of the house – not where we each hang out. But anyways. All in all, I just really hope they move out soon anyway. Regardless.

Change of subject: Sweet Pea Meia starts Childcare tomorrow !! It is the most exciting family news for me at the moment lol. I mean seriously, HOW EXCITING for Pea Meia !!!! I don’t think she’ll have any problem adapting at all. She is very confident in her own right, and she is also very comfortable with her own company too. She doesn’t seem to be too bothered about being involved at all times. Deity worries a little about this because she was also like this.. (we’re ALL like this lololol !) and we were talking yesterday about how.. by the time you DO want to be involved you suddenly realise, hang on, I’m NOT a part of this group really, am I? And it’s all because you never really cared BEFORE. And then it makes it hard for you to be social, and to really integrate yourself into the group, and for you to do it in a NORMA

L way lol.

Anyhow, I was just really glad to get on here and type away furiously in the comfort of my own home (as opposed to the local shopping centre, or the local library or even Mum’s place) without a care in the world !

I have an awful awful weezy / phlegmy cough. I SWEAR I am going to get some mainstream plastic pills because I just CANNOT keep going like this. All the natural stuff I usually acquire to simply HAS NOT WORKED this time OKAY??? It’s a huge toss-up. Do I let this bloody flu drag out because the natural remedies are taking their sweet fucking time – in the meantime I’m not eating properly and therefore not feeing Bubba properly.. not to mention that she’s taking all of the nutrients my body would normally give to ME anyway.. Or do I resort to plastic pills EVEN if they are only going to get rid of the SYMPTOMS and not the CAUSES.. but at least I’ll feel a lot better much more quickly so that I CAN start eating properly again – and looking after Bubba again….

I tell ya, the conundrum has already begun.