I knew this day would come…

They’re getting a divorce.

After all these years of screaming and shouting and fighting, its finally happening. My brothers and I are going to go live with my dad. They don’t know anything about it though. Not yet anyway.

I honestly don’t know how to feel. I’m crying but im not sad. I’m just…I don’t know. Frusterated I guess. There’s so much crap going on at once. Im now in the same group as frank, pat, jesse, all the millions of people out there who’ve got broken families.

Why did he have to tell me before I came to school this morning? Why?..

I was on the verge of crying all day. Some times when Im sure no ones looking, I cry. Im still not sure why.

I hate my mother. I seriously do. We’re all sick of her. Thats why I can’t figure out why I feel so bad. It might be all the change thats gonna happen. I don’t want it to change! I was fine with the way it was! Sure, it sucked, but I got used to it. Just when I start becoming content with my life, something goes to ruin it.

Actually, like my dad told me, they already got a divorce. A year ago, but just now theyre decided to move away from each other. My dad wants me to convince my brothers that everythings gonna be fine. It will. I know it will. It might even be better.

He told me that I have to help him pick out a new house, and furniture, and I have to start being the "woman of the house". My mom wanted all the furniture, but she didn’t want my brothers and me. Go figure.

I need to talk to Frank….Frank will make sense out of it all…

I wish I could go away…to my own little made up world…I would be happy there…

And I hope I get to keep Amber and Genie ..i love my kitties..and Im not going to leave without them.