give me a chainsaw and see what happens

Geez, why can’t summer be more exciting?

Ive had no social contact with any of my friends, except for anna and the occasional instant message from kirsten or daniel. if it wasnt for frank, id probably be screaming at myself right now, wondering why none of my friends want to talk to me and why they all hate me.

And speaking of frank, he was being a real ass today. i dont want to go into details, but he thinks im using him. The funny thing is, I think he’s using me, so i say we’re even. He’s in new jersey vising his dad for the summer, and he told me that his dad’s girlfriend left him, so his dad is pissed and has been shouting at anyone and anything that annoys him. Frank said thats the reason he’s been in such a bad mood lately. it makes me sad to hear frank say that his life is hell and that it sucks. why? because, he’s been there for me these last 2 years, and i cant be there for him. i dont know what to say to him, and i dont want anything to happen to him.

My life would be nothing if it werent for him. I know i tell myself and other people to not get attachted to people like that, to the point where you’d literally die if they were gone. But with him, i can’t help it..

Anyway, despite all the good he’s done for me, sometimes I feel like punching the crap out of him, like I wanted to do today. He can be a real bastard sometimes. If he wants something done, he brings up the whole cutting thing and either threatens me with it or makes me remember how he helped me get my life back together. Its real annoying, because it works. Thats one reason why I think that sarcastic little fucker is using me. He thinks im using him for a number of random reasons.

He makes me sick.

But at the same time, he makes me happy.

Strange. Very strange.