…mixed up feelings…

wow so much crap has happened in the last few days, its impossible to write everything down.

i guess ill start with sunday morning. i got grounded because micheal had been eating upstairs, i argued that it wasnt fair, and my dad said i couldve stopped him and thats why i was grounded to, because i didnt stop him. so i was pissed about that, and then micheal goes and tells me that i deserve to be grounded anyway because im rude and i yell too much and im mean to my mom. my reply was that she was an evil woman, and that he knew she was because shes always screaming at everyone — and then i stopped myself because i realized my mom was home, and sure enough, she heard me call her evil, went psycho, trashed my room, and tried kicking me out of the house. she then dragged my dad into it and told him she wanted a divorce.

frankly i thought that was fucken funny. if it werent for my dad, shed have no money and no life. apparently she realized this because she changed her mind. later that night my dog spilled some red paint on the carpet and she is STILL screaming at me about it. EVERY time she comes upstairs, she shouts something like "see how much that dog is costing me!? as soon as i BUY carpet cleaner, your gonna sit your ass on the floor and scrub up that paint!!!!"

also on sunday night, there was a huge storm. the lighting was fun to watch, there was a tornado warning, our lights went out for 5 hours, and the house down the street got struck by lightning and caught on fire. it was great. everyone was running and screaming through the rain and hail to see the house. the whole 2nd story is burned now.

on monday, i went to johnnys funeral. i dont want to go into detail. it turned out anna was going, so i went with her. i cried. im ashamed to admit it, but i did. i didnt get to see them bury him though, i think they said something about water being in the whole from the rain…i dunno. but it was horrible watching everyone cry. his mother was practically screaming when they shut the coffin. he’s such an idiot….

anyway…pat called me again last night, he just got back from arkanasas, but now he has to go to his aunts house in corpus for the rest of the summer. im going to corpus to my aunts house also, in july, so we might meet up over there.

R.I.P Johnny….