problem

Me and Anna both like the same guy.

the thing is, she doesnt know i like him too. which is bad. i guess this is where all the those friendship problems come from. during these last few years of my life, ive sat quietly in my classes, not talking to anyone, but listening to everyones conversations instead. People are always complaining about their "so-called friends" and discussing how their "friend" did this and that, and how they arent talking to each other anymore, and then a week later, they become friends again only to start fighting again a few days afterward.

it all sounds like bull crap to me because ive NEVER had ANY sort of fight AT ALL with my friends. weve always got along, weve never had any arguments, and even though i spent years listening to those idiotic conversations, i could never understand why the heck other people were always so angry with each other.

but now i think i finally figured out one reason. Guys.

i can already see whats starting to happen, and i can see why it would be a huge ordeal. imagine..anna likes pat. but i do too, and ive known pat for a long time, and we hang out together alot and hes so sweet and fun to be around. if i went out with him, anna would probably be thinking "how the heck could my best friend go out with the one guy she knew i liked!? she KNEW i liked him! How could she do this????"

yea, see, and then there i would be, being hated by one of my best friends.

at least we only have 1 more day left of school, so neither of us will be in touch with him for a few months. (well, i have his phone number and he has mine, but that doesnt really count)

and even if we DIDNT have one day left of school, i wouldnt tell anna i liked him, and id let her have him. (even though im pretty sure he’s terrified of her lol, because she’s…well…psycho. ha. she is SERIOUSLY psychotic, but thats one reason why we get along so well =D )

pats too…not psycho… for her. but i cant act myself around him. he doesnt know the "real me" as some people put it. if he knew how i really am, he’d hate me. he sees the happy, fun side of me at school. he doesnt know what im really like. thats why i think we wouldnt be a good couple, so i think were better off being friends.. i need someone..more understanding. like trey…or frank.

yea, trey or frank.

i *circle* them two so much. i miss them 🙁