Car Smash

So yesterday I smashed the entire rear end of my car to pieces (I have a hatchback and the back rear glass window was smashed out). How? I don’t the fuck know.

 I was just reversing from a car parking spot (in this tiny town of ours, with only a few cars in the pool carpark), you’d THINK would have been easy. I completely pummelled into a jeep with a huge rusty bull-bar. Did absolutely NO damage to him, but completely destroyed the back of my car.

 So in the space of SIX weeks, I have had TWO car accidents. Before that, nothing for SEVEN years. Hmm, does anyone see this ISN’T a coincidence? My car had just had the claim processed for the front bumper and hood/bonnet damage, and was booked in next week to be fixed. Now it’s been towed away and will need both front and rear completely replaced. They’ll probably have it for 2 weeks, but that’s okay because I don’t feel safe to drive anyway. It’s going to cost me $2000 ($1000 each claim) because I DO have insurance but the excess is still hefty.

 A friend has been a miracle and helped me with yesterday’s disaster, and taken care of the claim for me. I truly am so grateful to have wonderful people in my life.

 But I lost it, really, Damien is away, and I tried so hard to not fall apart. I really wasn’t upset about my car. I was upset about MY MIND, and HOW this could have happned. I DON’T make a habit at all, of reversing without looking, so I just don’t understand. Except I’m stressed to the max and not well.

 Sofie was sick today, cold/flu (genuine) and home from school. At least being sick has made her placid. And not prone to yelling and grumpiness. Yay for sickness!

 I have briefly mentioned to Damien that I haven’t ruled out IP (I said this casually in passing). To my surprise he reacted with support and like it was nothing big. He said, "Yeah if you think it’s needed, that would be fine". Hmm, well that’s a relief.

 I see my doctor tomorrow night.

 I’m just happy we live in the centre of town and I can walk everywhere. Although I WILL need to drive to my doctor’s appt tomorrow night ( I have Damien’s old spare car)