First day of Grade 6

Ah, life. So exhausting, strange, painful and uplifting.

We are moving in 1 week.

Sofie came home Friday night. Happy, bubbly. And has been just so wonderful. Her attitude has been fine. Damien has spent so much time with weekend interacting and engaging with her, and this morning for the FIRST day of school for the NEW SCHOOL year, at a BRAND NEW SCHOOL, she got dressed and actually seemed willing and ready to go. Damien took the day off work, and we were prepared for meltdowns but NO! We were so happily surprised.

She wasn’t the only new one at school – in fact half of her class might be made up of new students. She reported with a big smile on her face that she’s already made 3 new friends, and that she can’t wait to move here. Goddamn. This girl is just so damn changeable. After school we walked to the local pool (practically next door) and had a nice swim. She loved it.

This week we have to drive the distance as we’re still living at our old place, but thankfully it’s only this week. We have to start boxing the whole house in the next few days but thankfully this time we’ll hire some mini-mover people to actually do the loading and transporting etc. Doesn’t really work out that much more expensive. And it’s worthwhile. We deserve the break. We only moved 6 months ago, to here.

I am, well, I dunno. I have been crying every few days thorugh heated discussion with Damien, over miscommunications, and misunderstandings, and well, differences of opinion. But ultimately we use it in a positive way to help understand eachother better. But not until I’ve felt horrible about it all.

I am doing worse with eating. Well, not in terms of calories I guess but bad habits and chaotic eating. It seems I can’t manage to eat any REAL meals anymore, – only snacks – else I feel disgusting and "indulgent". However, I haven’t been counting the calories of the snacks much, so I am worried I may actually be consuming more than if I’d just stuck to meals. I don’t know. Not much more, as I really haven’t gained or lost, but I don’t know. Now Sofie is home it’s difficult to refuse dinner, and this evening I just didn’t sit down for dinner at all and Sofie got really mad at me for it, demanding to know, why I wasn’t eating what they were eating. I just shrugged and said I was fussy. Sigh. I don’t know.

So tommorrow I see new p-doc for 3rd time. Weekly visits now. I’ts hard to co-ordinate with everything else that is going on, including my tutoring (I have ANOTHER new little girl to tutor which I am so happy about), and karate for Sofie, and school, and driving etc. Hopefully we’ll work out a routine soon.

I am praying tomorrow will also be a good day for Sofie at school. Day number 2. Oh and looks as if there might be employment prospects for me at the school in the exact area (Learning Support) I’m interested in. By a stroke of luck the acting principal is an Early Childhood Teacher and Learning support teacher (not in that role this year, of course) and I expressed my interest in working. THere might be some opportunities, it sounded like, and she seemed interested. I’ll have to pursue it.

Hmmm, Damien and Sofie are addicted to the Xbox. At least they are having fun. Narnia.