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Home from Canberra (the nation’s capital). 1250km drive. 14hours in the car.

It was not an easy holiday to say the least. But kinda quiet, despite my having to visit (and be sweet, and sociable) to many of Damien’s friends and family.

Food driving me insane.

Heat driving me insane.

At least Sofie is gone now. With her mother for 4 weeks. Thank god. She was driving me insane too.

So much is going wrong right now, that I find myself in a bad place again. Sigh. I almost can’t bear to talk about it because I’m sick of complaining and sounding like a miserable git. But maybe explaining it would lead to clarity.

I wonder how long it will take for people to realise I’m not well. I’m very close to being quite sick again. And that seems the least of my worries right now. Infact, if you know EDs, you know it isn’t my worry, it’s actually my solution.

Sophia with some words

*hugs* I don’t think anyone who reads this diary thinks you’re “complaining” when you write, because you have some very real issues to write about! So if it helps, please write. Sofie being gone gives you a chance to be totally honest about how bad you feel. Use this time to try to find a solution for living with her without going crazy!

snowdrops.

December 30, 2005

You’re not a girl, Elizabeth, you’re a woman.

Oops, pressed ‘enter’ and the message posted before I’d finished it. Anyway, as I was saying- You’re not a girl, you’re a woman. Us women have to deal with all of life’s pressures, and looking after Sofie, and being a motherly figure takes its toll sometimes. You’re stronger than you think.

soliloquy girl

I have to agree with snowflake – you are so much stronger than you give ylurself credit for Elizabeth. Fight back, don’t let yourself get sick(er). Fight Elizabeth – Fight.