✾ First Entry ✾

❁ A Little Introduction ❁

Switching and starting over from an old diary site to this one since I finally got tired of jumping through hoops just to include images– I’m an artist and a very visual person, so that type of expression is integral for me… though, I’ve been on a gradual depressive decline, and despite all the grit and bearing, I think I’ve finally burnt out. I haven’t really drawn anything in months besides a few projects for class, much less sketched for pleasure any more than a few times a year these past few years I’ve been in college. I am exhausted. I feel empty, yet full of shame. Though I am living here and there on little moments and occasional adventures, most of the time I struggle to get out of bed and accomplish simple tasks. Yet, I am never devoid of hope, as I know life is ever changing and I will figure my way out of this rut. Most of my journaling during this time will probably be about this process.

My name is Koda, I am a 21 year old, non-binary oddball from the land of corn [Indiana].
I love my cats, aged or gritty textures, low fantasy like Lord of the Rings, and the strange & curious. My current obsession is revisiting world history/anthropology since I was too zonked out in high school to really pay attention to it. When I can get off my depressed ass I enjoy hiking & the outdoors, or rollerblading, and when I’m forced to be social I get drug out to quite a few local indie/punk shows, galleries, and maybe the lgbtq nightclub to dance if I’m feeling bold. And as previously mentioned, I am an artist at heart- I might post pieces from time to time just to talk about them, but here’s a tiny, general preview of some the work I posted this year on instagram:

–and yes, perfectionism is probably one of the contributing factors to the burn out. Anyways, if you follow you’ll get to know me more in time, and maybe I’ll get to know you too as I really love to be nosey on these sites. Also, as a fair warning, I might go a few weeks without posting, but I won’t drop off completely- my ADD ass just sucks keeping up with habits. Hope you all have a lovely holiday season!❄ ❄ ❄