Indecision

Hey everyone,

What’s good? I’m chilling at work like usual…just hanging out and answering phones. These old people are thoroughly pissing me off…but I’m cool:P Shake it off… heh So let’s see, whats new with me? I hung out with my Stephie-poo Saturday, and I told Michael that I was having doubts about our relationship. HUGE MISTAKE. Steph and I were trying to watch some chick flicks and he is texting me. I should have waited until Sunday when I was going over there, but my doubts were really great and I thought there was a big chance I was going to end things. But first…my night with the really hot Steph. She got me all alone in her bed, turned up the air so we wouldn’t get all hot and sweaty, and then popped in A CHICK FLICK. WOO:D We watched P.S. I love you (AMAZING movie with some hot Irish men) and Juno (really good movie also.) We popped some popcorn, drank soda, and I blew my diet outta the water. Awh. But we had a really good time just being lazy and not drinking, just enjoying each others company.
As for things with Michael, I told him how I was feeling on my way over to Stephanie’s, I really thought I couldn’t go through with things anymore and I wanted him to know so it wouldn’t just be me breaking up with him out of the blue. He got really upset, and he asked me if there was someone else. I was like "WTF?" I’m over at his house atleast every other day if not more frequent than that, of course there were those calls from Mark at like 4 in the morning…so not ma fault. Well he skips work Saturday night (which was just overtime at the city) and goes to Metropolis to Harrah’s. He acts out and blows some money, responsibly though. *high five* So on Sunday when I go over there he asks what I’ve decided. I’m honestly not sure at this point. There are a few issues that I have to solve on my own. He asked the night before if there was anything he could do to make things better…AWH…I felt like such an ass. So we talk, and he tells me that he took a chance on things whenever we first started talking because of our age difference but he never thought he would become so involved in such a short period of time. He’s right, we took a huge chance, and people still judge us on our age difference. His best friend Paul picks on me all the time, of course most of its in good humor and out of love for Michael, no harm intended. But things got really serious, really fast. So I think about it, and Michael is sitting on his couch looking like the saddest panda I’ve ever seen…and I thinking about him, his family, and all the prior engagements we’ve already agreed to as a couple. I don’t want to stay with him because of those things, I want to make sure I’ll be happy because if I’m not then our relationship isn’t ever going to work. Then in the midst of all these thoughts he says something, and I crack out laughing. We always have such a good time together, and I’m just not really to give it all up because I’m getting cold feet in the relationship field. I love him, and he makes me happy. So I’ve decided to quit dicking around, and be serious about our relationship. He forgave me for busting that on him. He always told me that if I ever have doubts to talk to him about it, and of course he made me feel better:)
We’ve had a blast ever since then. Sunday night we watched Three Kings with Mark Wahlberg, George Clooney, and Ice Cub. Good movie 🙂 Then we heated up some pizza and went to bed. He was suppose to go to work, and I was going to go home and sleep some more, but his throat was hurting from the good ole sinus drainage that comes from the beautiful weather we’ve been having. So we get to sleep in and snuggle. Then about 11 I go home and do some chores I’ve been putting off. I get ready to go back over there about 5. We stop over at his dad’s house and look at all the pics they took, they went on a road trip to Maine. They had a really good time. After that we went to the store, I picked up some brownie mix and all the stuff to make it and we ordered some stromboli from Pizza Pro. Good stuff yo, that added with the brownies. Yum…good times. Things between us are looking up:)

Well I guess that’s the end of my update, hopefully I’ll have some more interesting stuff to put here soon:)

Holla ata beana;)
-Kayla