A Hidden Talent?

      Well, Wednesday was a week since I returned Frank to New York.   The visit went really nice. In some ways I felt more comfortable with him than ever before, and we had some nice talks about the future. Something I have never, ever gotten from him before. On his last night here I brought up marriage.  I explained to him that it doesn’t have to be this second, or this year, or even next year. I did tell him that it was something I wanted in my life though. That I want to be married to him. I have invested a lot of years, a lot of love and trust and memories with him. I asked him how he felt about marriage and he pretty much said "why wouldn’t we get married?"  (Arggggghhhhhh….I wanted to punch him, lol)  I also told him I know he already had a child, but I want one of my own some day, he had agreed. He said I am the one person in the whole world he wants to have a child with. (Not to take away from the daughter he has or anything, I get the impression he is very in love with her. Which is wonderful!) So those conversations warmed my heart, and gives me hope that someday all my dreams really may come true. I guess we’ll see though.

  While in New Orleans we were sitting in this great local bar (Flannegans for those of you who may ever go there!) And he opened up and told me stories of his daughter , like his best memories of her. It felt so great to be a part of something so personal to him. It finally felt like the was a world out there besides the one we live in together. It was nice to be a part of remembering a memory. I just wish I had known about everything before, because we could have been doing this all along. But maybe somethings do happen for a reason? Maybe I wouldn’t have handled things as maturely (minus Mr. Saint Louis, lol) and I hope to one day meet the little girl (pre-teen) who is my competition in his life!

On a brighter note, things are going well for me in school, and I should be finishing up this time next year, which is pretty great, I am so ready to be out of the customer service business and into an actual career. I am very ready for a big girl job!         

                                                                                                                                           
I am still working on going through all of the pictures from New Orleans. Frank has a camera that takes like 4 shots a second or something, so there is a couple thousand pictures I have to go through. Well, actually, I already did that, but now I have to go through and resize them and touch up the ones that need it. During his stay with me, he let me play with his camera and I absolutely LOVED it. I took some really great pictures for being such an ameture! I have some set aside that I plan on posting to show my work! I begged him to let me keep his camera but of course he said "hell no!" lol. It’s a pretty expensive camera, with both of his lenses and everything.

HOWEVER, before we had our trip to Prague, we had searched for a good camera to take with us, to really capture our trip, and so he found one and invested 800 bucks on it! But he hasn’t really even used it since the trip. And now that he has this new Cannon, that one is just going to sit there and collect dust. So he is giving it to me!!!! I am SOOOO excited. I can’t afford a lens for it yet, which sucks. I am pretty sure he is going to give it to me at X-mas though, with a new lens for my X-mas present. I can’t wait!!! I enjoyed using it in Prague, and I took as many pictures as he did, which wound up in the little bound book he made and had printed. 

I practiced a lot with his camera  with my cat! Haha, I have like 2,000 photos to go through. Some turned out really great. We had just given her fresh catnip, so you can imagine the fun photos that came of that. I am going through those too. Uhg, we probably took like 6,000 photos while he was here. It took a million cd’s for me to get copies of them all. I promise to post the best ones on here as soon as I have sorted through them and you can give feedback! (I am like a kid now, I can’t wait for X-mas to get my camera! he doesn’t know that I have figured out my gift, but I think he forgets how much I analyze crap…plus he keeps sending me links to different lens’ …and he doesn’t need any..so…yeah… haha) Anyway, class is starting in a minute, I better go.  I’ll write more soon. (this entry feels very scattered, I’m sorry. )

Pic #1  Me and Frank
Pic #2 Me and my mom
Pic #3 Me and my friend’s daughter.