Late Night Skittle Entry

Okay Kitty, here you go: I promise I didn’t fall off the face of the earth!!!…have wanted to though..lol

    So it’s been almost two months since I have written in this thing, I even promised myself for sanity reasons I’d write in here more often. I guess we can see how well that’s been going! Oiy

    Things have been going pretty rough lately. My mom and I are so financially strapped its rediculous. We have been living on Top Ramen for weeks now, and we’re down to two packs and between both of us we maybe have 10 bucks to get us to next pay day. Thats 1 week from tomorrow…lol To top it off, our fridge went out..has been going out for weeks now. We tried to keep it alive as long as possible but the poor thing just gave out. We got a new one from Lowes and thankfully don’t have to pay for it for one year, and it wont even start accruing interest until next year..so thats kind of a relief. Hopefully by then things will be better. So right now we have a nice, new, COLD fridge..that has like half a gallon of milk, an almost empty container of butter and some bbq sauce in it.  It looks REALLY pathetic..haha..we’re both starting to get pretty frantic and desperate though…trying to keep our heads above water. If things don’t smooth out pretty soon I am not sure what we’re going to do. I was hoping to get more money for school, but I only got enough to cover the semester barely, so the idea of catching us up with that and getting ahead is out. I’m sure something will work out for us, some how we’ll stumble onto a bundle of hundred dollar bills or something..lol..we even had to sell a couple of my grandmother’s rings just to pay a bill. That was really hard for my mom…it would have been incredibly hard for me to do. A person has to do what they have to do though, to make it in this world with 4 dollar gallons of milk, 4 dollar gallons of gas…The dollar means nothing anymore.

    On a positive note, Frank was here for the 4th of July and we had a really great time together. We bbq’d with some friends and a neighbor I have made friends with and her boyfriend and his friends. His two friends had actually just gotten back from Afghanastan (spelling??) and apparently hadn’t shot off PRETTY fireworks (lol) in some time. I think between the both of them they had 600 bucks worth of fireworks, plus the 100 Frank laid out on fireworks. It was a pretty spectacular show. The entire apartment complex came down to where we were to watch instead of going to see the one the city puts on!! We were pretty proud of that…The rest of the time he was here we spent relaxing at the pool or just bumming around. We really didn’t accomplish much, and I guess you could say it was our most relaxed visit together. After 7 months of no visit it felt really good to sleep next to him..it always feels so safe and he’s right there…The visit with him took my mind off all my troubles. I wish he was around more often!!!   He is planning on getting his own place soon and wants me to go to NY for New Years…so hopefully that works out…Maybe I can convince him to put off getting a kitty (he loves cats..lol) until I get there so we can do it together…we spend so much time online looking at kitties..(if his guy friends knew about this they’d tease him forever..but its his soft spot and I love it!) Guess all I can do is see what happens!

    I have made a new friend here at work. She moved down here from STL to kind of be closer to her boyfriend (who lives south about 45 minutes from here) and so she could spread her wings. Apparently her parents are a bit loaded and have spoiled her so this being on her own and doing things all for herself is a bit of a challenge, but she seems to be loving it. Anyway, about two weeks after she got all moved in her boyfriend broke up with her! It’s been like two weeks so her spirits are lifting again, but that is kind of a bummer. She didn’t want to move to the same town he was in because she didn’t want to rush things between them, so she picked a middle town and found this job and an apartment..and then he goes and says shes not mature enough yet…Granted she’s only 21, and still has some childish things about her, but who doesn’t really? Her boyfriend just kind of sounds like an ass…I think she saw it coming though, she told me she’s been trying to distance herself from him because she felt something was amiss….Always listen to your gut instinct girls!!!!!  But she’s super sweet and fun and so far seems like a pretty decent friend. We have a good time together, and its nice to have someone here to relate to instead of sitting at home after work every day with my mother….I was starting to feel pretty old…But she’s broke too trying to live on her own so we have cheap fun together, lol. I think what I like about her the most is she makes an effort to wanna hang out…its not one sided…thats so nice for a change!! lol

    I have even made friends with a neighbor of mine. She’s a bit chaotic and wild and tempermental…She’s like chaos before the calm in a storm..lol…But she too is sweet and thoughtful and very fun to hang out with. Shes very free spirited and…just free…or at least she comes off that way. I kind of envy the kind of freedom she has to love who she is and just be so intune with everything….Maybe I can learn something from her after all….=)  She is definately a person who lives in the moment….or runs away from her past..which is pretty harrowing…I dunno…She’s definately complex…I think I like hanging around her because there’s so many facets to her personality…I have some theories about her..she’s an entire diary entry by herself….lol

    Anyway, that’s all that’s really going on with me…nothing terribly exciting…or dramatic…just a little fun here and there and then starving..lol…maybe this is how I can shed some weight!!!…not the healthiest way..but at this point I’ll try anything, lol.