So The Story Goes Like This

            If I thought I didn’t have enough personal time before, I really don’t have any now. My first day on the job as manager a girl called me 3 hours into her shift saying she couldn’t stay any longer so my mom (who usually works here one day a week) came in to finish her shift out. Wednesday was the next day she was due to work, and of course she didn’t call or show. So I came in and did her shifts all week on top of my own. Then a desk clerk told me she’s moving BACK to NJ on June 16th, so now I need to come up with three new employee’s to be trained and ready to go by then. I am a bit scared.  I hope that when I see my first big check it is worth all this headache. The job part isn’t so bad, like I can do the work you know? It’s this working all these shifts because people are so damn undependable. Why are they that way? Like how can people just look at themselves in the mirror every day and be ok with them-selves??? Knowing they’re flaky and unreliable???  I wish I had it in me to be that way. To not give a flip who I screw over. But that just isn’t who I am. I don’t think I’d like myself that way either.

            I don’t think Ish and Damina are taking my new posistion very seriously. I honestly think they think I can’t do the job. “If you get confused…” I haven’t asked for help, or anything the whole week. I’ve just done the work. But they still treat me as if I am still a mere desk clerk, and they yell at me a lot for some reason. I am not doing anything wrong or anything, but they just come in here yelling, and demanding irrational things. When you try to explain logic to them they fly off the handle and then wonder why things aren’t working smoothly. Why they aren’t getting max revenue every night. Basically when I do things their way things go belly up, and they wonder why I am doing something wrong. You can’t tell them that their way of thinking is CRAZY though, because they don’t see it. So from now on, I’ll do things how they want them done, and when things blow up in their face and they start yelling at me, I’ll dish it back out. I’m giving this job two years from now. I am going to save every penny for two years, and then I am out of here. That is all there is to it. I am not going to be stuck here forever. Frank even thinks my taking this job is only good for the money and in two years it’ll be time to say good-bye. I’ll have enough saved up that I wont be scraping pennies to get by in NY. Hopefully by then he’ll have made some decision as to where our relationship is going too. I wont push anything until then. It’ll have been 7 years, time for something to change.

            He wants me to leave the position after 1 year, but I dunno if I can do that. The deal for me to take this job was two years, but it isn’t like I signed a contract either. Ish also is known for not keeping his word, so if he bails out on my raise after 90 days, or my bonus after 1 year, then I have a good excuse to leave too. Either way, I will make sure I leave with a good reference and a resume` that’s for sure.

            The first week of June I have to go to Saint Louis for a management certification training, so all though I’ll be in classes from 9-5, I will be away from Cape and the hotel for a bit. That will be kind of nice. After classes let out I’ll go back to my hotel room, order in, and be incredibly lazy until bedtime. Hopefully it’ll be a stress free week for me.

            Either way, other than being incredibly busy with my new position, nothing new has really happened. I am having problems with one employee being a bit demanding now that I have moved up in the company and we’re no longer on the same comrade level. She’s been a bit difficult to handle lately, but hopefully those kinks will be worked out soon. I don’t want to lose her loyalty, but I want to be respected as the new manager as well.